for me it's the forbidden love, the bodyguard trope, the childhood friends trope, the war comrades trope, it's the "everyone can see it," the "I know you better than anyone else," the "they're married™," it's the "we're both fucked up and I know it's hard to live, but you can't give up on living because I can't afford to lose you", it's the "he's an idiot, but he is my idiot" trope, it's the "I believed in your vision and entrusted you with my secret and you betrayed me", it's the "please, burn my secret from this world, you owe me at least that much", it's the "I haven't stopped believing in you despite everything you've done", it's the "I hate what we've done, I hate what we have become, but I will keep protecting you, I will keep pulling the trigger of my gun for you and for you only" and it's the "I trust you more than I trust myself and I want you by my side, but I want you to shoot me if I ever lose myself again", it's the "I have caused you pain again, please forgive me if you can", it's the "losing you is the worst thing I can imagine, but I am willing to let you die rather than betray you again", it's the "I've lost my sight, but if you are by my side I'm not blind", it's the -
