So, as a goyim, what would be my options for ceremonial or high magic? I have nothing but respect for Jewish culture and want to make sure that whatever I do, I don't appropriate. Thanks!
hi! Ezra here. first, i want to say that i appreciate the spirit of the question - beginning to learn about cultural appropriation can be (from personal experience!) pretty difficult & requires a willingness to be vulnerable & patient (with other people & with yourself). it’s really important! i say all this because my answer to your question is one that might be hard to hear, but i hope you’ll spend some time with it.
as a non-Jewish person (or goy - goyim is plural) who respects Jewish culture & sincerely wants to avoid appropriation, you’re going to want to avoid traditional ceremonial/high magic. i’m not aware of any forms of western “ceremonial” occultism that don’t draw directly from medieval sources rife with anti-semitic appropriation.
if it’s a non-Jewish source that includes Hebrew, uses kabbalistic diagrams, references Jewish figures like Solomon as “magicians” who control demons, etc. - it’s appropriation, and it’s part of a long legacy of depicting Jews as powerful, corrupt sorcerers who selfishly hoard secret wisdom that would be better off in the hands of Christians (and yes, the people who wrote these books & used them were Christian - often members of the clergy themselves - who were then persecuted by other Christians. for a really in-depth history of this kind of magic, i recommend Grimoires: A History of Magic Books by Owen Davies, and for an excellent view of actual Jewish experience during this time, read Jewish Magic & Superstition by Joshua Trachtenberg)
Jewish sources on Jewish magic have a very different perspective on these things & while you’re welcome to read & learn about our traditions, putting them into practice is for Jews!
here’s the thing: part of the reason i started learning more about my own Jewish heritage & discovering the history of Jewish magic is because i was a once a young aspiring witchy-type who didn’t particularly understand cultural appropriation & was looking for spirituality in a lot of places i had no real connection to! i remember thinking (around age 12) that the only way i could get involved with magic was to worship neo-pagan Celtic-style deities, because that’s what was presented as “real witchcraft” in the Wiccan books i had access to. i also felt like i could just pick & choose from global traditions based on how cool they sounded, ignoring the actual histories of the people who originated those practices. once i got a little more educated, i went through a period of “well, what’s for ME?” & even though that started as a sort of pouty “why am i not allowed to touch everything” (which is a question that has some important answers!) it turned into “wait, if i actually dig, what’s my own history? what did MY ancestors do? what’s my story?”
in my opinion, that kind of digging is really rewarding.
in the (very unlikely) event that you don’t find something you connect to in your own heritage - remember that you don’t actually need to follow a pre-laid path! i know folks whose magic & spirituality is entirely self-invented. that’s real too.
in any case, i appreciate you taking the time to ask & hopefully to read through all this - best of luck!