Unpopular opinion?

It bugs me when people try to analyze Dean and Castiel's relationship -- when Dean calls Castiel names or insults him. How they say that Dean is abusing him and things like that.

And it bugs me because the information they're giving to back up what they're saying is based off of people with generally normal upbringing. Neither Dean or Castiel had normal upbringings. 

And it doesn't really take a genius or a lot of analyzing to see that Dean isn't very good at expressing how he feels about people. He's been throwing jokes and insults and names in Sam's direction for as long as Dean can remember. And Dean isn't insulting Castiel. He's just telling him that he cares in a very nontraditional way.

I dunno. I was just thinking about this and yeah. 

Sometimes I sit here and cry when I remember how badly Sam and Dean think about themselves.

Sam's going crazy and he (may) think he's a monster and Dean thinks he's made of nothing but crap and that he isn't worth much.

Why.

Why.

Why is their life mission to ruin my life?

I don't know what happy is anymore.

And I can't seem to pull myself away from it all. I want to hurt with them.

Family doesn't end with the TV screen that separates us.

"Dean Winchester!"

Dean's brows pulled together as he looked over at Castiel, who had turned to look at him with an equally questioning gaze. Slowly, the two looked back at the male who called out to Dean.

"Don't you recognize me?" 

"'Course not. I've never seen you in my life," Dean retorted, reaching for his gun.

"It's the Doctor!" The man exclaimed. "Now, could you two put out that fire? I'm not here to hurt you. I'm here because Amy, Rory, and I have found a way to trap Lucifer without Sam having to jump into the pit."

Again, Castiel and Dean shared a look before the angel stepped forward, hand outstretched. As he lowered it, the flames did as well. "What have you found, Doctor?" Castiel asked. 

The Doctor's lips twitched into a grin, twiddling his fingers. He took a step forward, whispering, "The Pandorica."

Castiel's eyes widen slightly and he cants his head, staring at the Doctor. Dean takes a step forward. "The Pan-what?"

"Come on, you two. Onto the TARDIS. I'll explain everything on the way there. Rory and Amy are waiting."

"But Doc--"

"--Dean, get on the TARDIS," Castiel commands, following after the Doctor. With a grunt and mumbling a few choice words, Dean follows after, not looking forward to being lurched around in the blue box.

it's 4 in the morning and I don't know how to werds. 

So, enjoy the Destiel fluff?

I am going to attempt to write Destiel fluff to get rid of these angsty feelings.

I don’t know what this is. :x I just threw it up and ta-daaa, Superwholock. Not the best, I’ll assure you. But, eh. My favorite parts are the Sherlock ones. Anyway, enjoy? also, the end is supposed to be like, y’know, they aren’t ever really dead. sshhhh. just go with it.

Shows: Supernatural, Sherlock, Doctor Who

Song: Sweet Sacrifice

Artist: Evanescence 

I reuploaded it because I didn't like the effects I used on the old one.

So here's the deal.

I am not ready.

I am not ready for Castiel to return.

Y'wanna know why?

Because I do not want to lose him again.

I have been telling myself since the start of the season that he's okay and that he'll be back, and he is coming back. But with all these spoilers, I'm scared of hoping because I don't want to be let down.

I get it. They need to keep it fresh. They need to switch things up. But I have never been so attached to a character without ever knowing it until now. Just the thought of Castiel makes me want to break down. Sure, maybe he's just 'a character' to some people, but to me, he's the one who helped stop the Apocalypse, the angel who fought for what he thought was right, and then he tried to teach his siblings how to be independent because they couldn't rely on God.

I hate that they've made him out to be the 'bad guy'. He's never been bad. Sam and Dean have done some pretty bad shit before and --

This post isn't about who did what or who's better or anything. 

You can't just take away our angel like that. I don't care if you give him the best most bamf exit, I don't want him gone. So this is me, telling every single Supernatural fan that, as much as I would love to comfort you, I will try to be pulling myself from my own spiraling angel induced depression.

It physically hurts to think that he won't be here for much longer than 3 episodes. How much more can you break Dean and Sam down? They're going to eventually off themselves because it's going to be too much. 

Ugh.

I just.

I have a lot of feelings and I don't know what to do with them. But don't worry, I'll just keep on smiling like it's okay. I might just sit down and cry sometimes, but I'll know that I'm not alone. At least, I'm hoping that I'm not alone.

I need Cas.

Okay. Seriously I did just start to cry at that Castiel gif set I reblogged because of the tags. A lot of people seem to forget that. (go see what the tags say)

Because I miss him so damn much and I don't know, I guess I've just been really emotional lately but whenever it's something deep like that, I'm just a big ball of emotions. Like, I've always always have loved Castiel and lately, when I watch previous seasons or read fics, I just want to give up on everything because we can't have him. I have literally never felt so down before because of a character. I can't even form proper sentences because my thoughts are all over the place and I don't know what to think. All I know is that I want Castiel back.

I just want to move into a bubble where everything is okay. Where Castiel, Bobby, and Gabriel, because I miss that fucker too, are alive and they're with Sam and Dean. And they're working together on how to take down the Leviathan. And to make it fair, Gabriel would only have half of his power and that would be their challenge because they can't just throw an archangel out into the playing field and be done with it.

I just want them to be okay and ugh. 

I'm gonna just go and cry in a corner, alone.

This sucks. It really does. I was bored. I had clips. I had music.  There's no real plot. I think it's from Cas' point of view.  And the style changed in the middle (or the beginning) of the video, so, yeah.

Artist: Blue Foundation Song: Eyes On Fire Pairing: Destiel