Trigger warning
5 years ago today I survived my very first suicide attempt. This followed by many others. I went to the hospital on August 22nd 2014 so I could get help but the hospital said they thought I was fine and didnt need help. I went to a different one on August 23rd 2015 and I was admitted. I was there for 10 days. Since then till this day I have had troubles with cutting, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorder, hallucinations, voices, panic disorders and more. It took years and years with medications. I took medications that made me gain 50 lbs in a month. Ive taken handfull of medications, Ive refused to take medications, hell Ive even hid medications. Finally Im on a set where I feel like Im stable. Im 2 weeks clean from cutting. Looking back at 5 years ago I never thought Id be here today. Id though I’d be dead.