If I had to see it you had to

Not the best day. Headed to urgent care was there for 6 hours getting fluids, meds for my head. Im no longer in remission for IIH its back and its kicking my ass

Night time Meds but make it ✨fancy✨

Disclaimer - these are all meds perscribed to me including Diamox, Lamictal, Buspar, Atenolol, Benydril, Singular, Bentyl, Flexeril, Tramidol, doxylamine succinate, metformin, pantoprazole and seroquil. Always ask your doctor before consuming alcohol especially with psychiatric drugs as it can be very dangerous.

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Sooo I have been thinking intensly over the past 10 minutes. We all know Jane and her ability is to cause an internal firey pain. But what if her human mate, or vampire (We can go either way with this) What if the human or vampire in question had a pain kink. And we all know Jane is the dominant one. I dont see Jane being the submissive one at all. And this human or vampire in question I’m guessing likes Wax play, impact play so on so on. But would he like Janes power, (well he or she would but) I’m sure Jane is like Kate and can control how much voltage she uses. I full on can imagine Jane getting it on with someone while giving them just a low voltage of pain. And sure as hell Jane is enjoying it too

So Im at work right now. I was closing the window and some dumbass before me put a 5 pound board ontop of the window. Where you push up to open it. It dropped on my finger. Like hard. Im so surprised it didn’t break my finger. My nail needs fixing though it almost tore off 😅😅😅😅 gotta go tomorrow 😭😭 my nail is hanging by a thread

I had a horrible allergic reaction from sun/diamox/sunscreen and it hurts so bad Like I cant even wear a shirt its so bad. My skin is burning hot. Rip me (i know its an allergic reaction due to the rash on my arms)

Thank god, I woke up at like 12:00 and my pain was gone and When I woke up to go to work it was still gone. Im not in extreme pain anymore. I mean my wrist and back still hurt but Im not, not able to move anymore. Im so glad that Im not in pain or Id call in sick and go to the doctors

Im having severe muscle pain in my back. Ive been having it for about a month its been progressively getting worse but I really doubt the doctors will do anything. My mom said they dont give out muscle relaxers. So I’m gonna stick to advil and weed. Once I get home from the store Im gonna go take an edible and hope for the best.

Im having a god awful night. I’m on my period right now and these cramps are unbearable. I mean I cannot stand. I cannot walk. They are uo my stomach. I’m in so much pain to where Im crying and throwing up. And Im crying to my mom telling her I need to go to the doctors, yes Im 18, I can make my own appointments but I still let my mom in on all my appointments because sometimes they call her. And she says “youre over reacting Because you never get your period. You just dont know how to deal” and this is making me more upset because Im in SO much pain. Its to the point where I want to go to the ER but I know all they will do is keep me in the waiting room and not do shit. But its so fucking painful. Like I just don’t know what to do. I took a pain pill so its not as bad right now but still I feel like Im dying from how painful it is 😭😭😭

The moment when the pain pills and sedation wear off

I Want A Tattoo

I want a tattoo

Not a tattoo that’s meaningless

I want a tattoo that tells a story

A story about how I’ve grown as a person

I want something that shows all the mountains I climbed

And all the wars that I fought

I want to make my sad, beautiful, tragic story into a beautiful peice of art

I want something beautiful that displays all the pain and rain storms that I have gone through

I want people to now how strong I am and how much I have overcome just by simply looking at a peice of art

I want to tell a story

The story of the person I am today

So I dont want any meaningless tattoo

I want my story expressed as art

I dont want people to see my scars

I want people to see and the strong, smart, incredible and beautiful woman I am today

I may never be able to erase my scars from the past

But thats okay

My scars

My tears

My screams

The challenges

And battles

The wars

The pain and heartbreak

Everything just

Made me

...

Me

Behind my pretty face is pain