Waiting...
2021 -> 2024
also sorry i still dont understand how to use this site :c
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Goth Girl Summer
“I think the sublime confusion is from nineteen to twenty-nine. You think you are late for everything, you’re a has been, nothing is happening, there’s no opportunity for you, the world is closed, everything is a disaster, you wanna die. And then you’re thirty. "
"You young people are in the exact age of desperation. I never felt more done and old than in my twenties. I’d say ’life has passed me and I did nothing.’ But I’m here to tell you that’s not true: you have a lot of fucking time."
- Guillermo del Toro
Guillermo is my hero for many reasons, and these words are one of them. When I first read them as a twenty-something, they gave me so much comfort.
The majority of my twenties was claimed by depression, and I would hate myself for wasting them, wasting my potential, wasting all the chances the world was giving me. When that depressive period ended, I was still angry about it, and then I read the above words.
In the midst of being told by everyone and everything that "your twenties are the best years of your life!” and “don’t waste your twenties!”, here was someone who I deeply admired/admire as an artist and a person telling me that actually, no, there’s far more after your twenties, your twenties can actually be incredibly stressful and you’ve got a lot more ahead of you.
I’ve been looking forward to my thirties, even with the odd comment of it being the time when you start to physically break down. My twenties were full of growing pains, but now I feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be for the next stage of my life, that I’m on the precipice of accomplishing so many goals and hopes and dreams.
Lots of folks have told me that there’s definitely a feeling of being “settled” in yourself in your thirties that’s not present in your twenties, which I’ve been looking forward to, and I truly believe I am going to achieve just that.
Welcome, 30. I’ve been waiting for you
How's it going, everyone? Let's take it down several notches and relax with your fishing rod...
This is a beautiful, relaxing track, and worth turning up to really bask in all of the individual elements of it. It has that "lo-fi hip hop" back beat to it, and the keyboard lines and pads have such lush, clear tones that outline all of the chords. It's a fairly simple loop, but it does have a B section that keeps things moving and adds variety. I really love the acoustic guitar here too, whether it's the plucked backgrounds, or the little solo in the second round of the A section. You can even hear the sound of fingers sliding on the neck in some parts, which is a lovely, tactile touch. It's a deceptively long loop, and easy to chill and melt into. It also serves in contrast to the rest of the soundtrack, fully embracing the idea of fishing as a break from the exploratory or breakneck speed sections. I'm a big fan!
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