I hope I am not being intrusive but I have noticed that you haven't been posting much and I just wanted to ask if everything is ok?
Thank you loads for the concern :)
It was a lot of personal reflection that led me to think that at the time, I should be alone for a while. I love the support everyone is giving this blog, but I was really struggling with how to be alone without being lonely. It was my first time being separated from my first real group of friends because they went to medical school and I decided to work as a consultant-professor juggling a bunch of projects at once prior to going to grad school. I lost a lot of people who weren’t as sincere as I thought them to be as well. But I didn’t want to bring any of that here, partly because I felt that it wasn’t relevant to this blog and mainly because it was precisely that I needed to deal with this newfound independence and adulthood, well, independently and as an adult.
I feel that in that time, I grew up a lot. It was funny because I was watching Shingeki no Kyojin (Attack on Titan) and in Bystander, Sadies looked at the cast (who used to be his trainees in the Cadet Corps) and told them that though it had only been a handful of months, he could barely recognise them after all they’d been through. I laughed so hard because just a day before I was talking to one of my old professors and he said it felt as though I’d aged four years instead of four months (I was working four jobs at the time) hahaha
I did get over it. I now have a better work-life balance and I’m having a bunch of fun being with myself. And because my self has been rather stable (as stable as a consulting job can be haha) the last few months, I felt it was time to reincorporate some other things I love back into my life.