Something Squirrely

i really do think kuroto dan from kamen rider ex-aid (2016) is one of the most characters ever

he’s 30 years old. he’s a gamer. he’s a ceo. he kicks off the whole plot at 14 by sending a deadly virus to a random kid because the kid had better ocs than him. he really wants to change the world and create a way to bring dead people back to life but he also really wants to make fortnite real. he insists on combining those. he succeeds at both. he’s asked to apologize for what is essentially mass murder and bioterrorism and he completely genuinely replies with “i don’t think i’ve done anything that merits an apology”. he dies over 100 times total. he dies 12 times in one night once because he overworked himself too hard. he renames himself to “new kuroto dan” after one of his more major revivals. then “god kuroto dan”. he gets extremely mad at people for not calling him that. there’s a scene where he screams about becoming god with the power of gaming while he’s naked in the woods. it is never explained why he was naked. he’s played by a licensed pharmacist. he’s 6'1. he’s everything to me

please watch kamen rider ex-aid

glad you asked

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

I really wish more ADHD mental health care told you WHY things like this matter to our quality of life.

The Hyperactivity in Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder is NOT about being physically hyperactive, it's about having a "hyperactive central nervous system" because it's a form of inheritable dysautonomia. The problem with disautonomia, especially the ADHD kind, is that it makes boredom flag to your nervous system as a THREAT, triggering hyperactive and maladaptive central nervous system processes like fight or flight.

But dysautonomia kills you that way. Literally, part of the reason our average life spand increase on stimulents is that it helps manage risk-taking impulsivity that can get us killed by accident, but the other part is that stimulents can regulate a hyperactive CNS such that it is functionally (while impacted by the stimulent) NOT dysregulated anymore. And PHYSIOLOGICALLY that is essential because the physical outcomes of dysautonomia can reduce your life span by YEARS if not decades through self-perpetuating hypervigelence, endocrine disruption, and adrenal fatigue.

So when the ADHD brain goes stimulation-seeking and a doctor tells you to practice mindfulness, it feels like being told "hey go stand in a functioning boiler until you can stop thinking" rather than WHAT IT IS which is the process of re-teaching your body what is and isn't safe.

Standing outside making mindful, non-interpretive/moralized observation of the world helps your brain and body re-acclimate to the idea that absence of that frantic "busy" feeling isn't a threat or a risk to your safety, and gradually reduces the level of distress that just hanging out somewhere triggers for you.

Learning WHY this stuff was being suggested and understanding what it was actually supposed to do went a long way towards changing my relationship with my ADHD. I am FAR more functional now, far less prone to shame spirals and rejection sensitivity, hell, I can **sit physically still for near on an hour at a time** now without feeling like I'm going to crawl out of my skin.

So yeah. Go outside. Let the world narrow around you and take deep breaths until it stops feeling claustrophobic or like you need to climb walls. Learn how to let little sensations become big ones like the way the heat of the sun on your skin starts as a gentle warming and be omes a unique collection of sensory moments depending on how it lands on you. Listen for sounds under sounds and let them fade in and out as you move your focus from one sound to the next. Enjoy. Move on. Rinse and repeat.

When you no longer feel like the world is actively killing you, it's a lot easier to navigate it.

People always talking about chronically online, about dopamine detoxes and putting your phone down etc, but my issue is that the people I want to hang out with and the handful of close friends are online and I have nowhere else to see them. I wish I could just go hang out with them, or meet them at the bus stop, or go do chores and grocery runs together or see them so often that I will need to go home to decompress alone and I promise 100% that I won't be online. I forget I have a phone when I am with friends, I just don't have friends around me I can be casually close with. This is the real problem of social media, you make bonds with people you cannot physically be with and it begins to mentally fuck you up

Kamen Rider Legend Gorgeous Kuuga cosplayed by @shotalaw_waaaay.

the first rule of shipping is get aromantic with it. the second rule is that gender and sexuality are what i want them to be. the third rule is have fun and be yourself

the fourth rule is it doesn’t have to be fucking canon

FIFTH RULE IT IS ALWAYS MORALLY CORRECT TO MAKE THAT SHIP MORE TOXIC!!!!!

I feel like some people need to relearn Genre Expectations... "Man, this tragedy sucks!!! Why didn't they just do XYZ, then everything could have ended happily!!" well, then it wouldn't be a tragedy, would it. "Man, this lighthearted teen romcom is terrible, it's so sappy and unrealistic!!" Well, yeah. If it had been gritty and dark, it wouldn't have been a lighthearted romcom, would it. Is the writing actually bad or are you just trying to order a milkshake from a Home Depot

cute bugs

Best part of Kuuga for me is that in lieu of a secondary rider with superpowers that can go toe to toe with the main Rider we get

Man with Gun

His mid season upgrade is Bigger Gun

His power of friendship super move is Throw Gun to Other Guy

ohger doodles from the depths of my gallery

Tokucember Day 19: Anniversary

I didn't really know how to interpret this one but uh Kuuga turns 25 next month sooooo old goichi for you today. Ichijo would be turning 51 this year, cute right? In 2025 godai has a smartphone but hasn't quite mastered selfie taking :)

Full pic under the cut:

this is by far the best explanation of how asexuality and sexual attraction works

as someone who's actually got no sense of smell, the actual comments i usually get are:

not even (x)?

you're missing out on so much.

that must be great not having to deal with the bad ones.

did something happen to you?

can they fix it?

which like, all comments that i'm sure ace people have to deal with.

I like this, because I'd describe myself as no longer ace, and I despise when people take that to mean that asexuality is fake or people grow out of it.

For me, it's more like one day I started being able to smell things. And it wasn't all at once and it wasn't even what people might expect and it didn't make sense and tbh I wasn't even sure wtf the sensation was at first. It took a lot of getting used to. And it also didn't change the fact that before, I didn't have a sense of smell, and that I was fine with being that way. Now, well, it is interesting having this other dimension of reality to explore, but like, also, whatever.

When I was “I want him” about a male character im not saying I wanna fuck him. I want him like a spoiled little girl wants a pony, I want to him so I can put him on my shelf for safekeeping, I want him like a good hearty stew on a winter’s evening, I want to put him in a jar and shake it.

An old comic done for a zine

that's fucking hilarious holy shit

To be fair, having a tantrum is entirely in character for Starscream.

sometimes i say things on twitter and then make a little graph about it