Spydad makes me feral in a way I can not truly describe. Spy, an absent father, an asshole who deep down really wants to get to know the son he never stayed for. Scout's mother still loves him. Her other children don't care if he's around or not. But the opinion of the mercenary that is his own flesh and blood is what he cares most for.
The fact that the other mercs probably know. The fact Sniper and Heavy DO know. How Heavy brings up Scout's father. How Sniper urges Spy to do something during his son's 'final' moments.
The fact that Spy granted Scout a petty mercy by being someone who Scout sees a father in, and not himself. By telling him what he's yearned to through another's mouth. Does it kill him inside? I think it does.
And Scout, if he ever found out, would he kick and scream at the revelation? What if he knows already? What if the dreams are fueled by denial. What if Scout sees how similar him and Spy really are?
And when Spy tells him, how would Scout react? Surely, he'd be angry. He'd punch and Spy would take it.
But Scout is his mother's son.
Scout, after yelling and telling Spy just how much he hates him... Scout goes in for a hug that takes Spy by surprise.
Scout says he still hates him.
Scout says he doesn't forgive him.
But he could learn to, if Spy learns to be a father.
And Spy hugs back because, yes, he wants to learn. He's been wanting to learn for twenty or so years.