“You’re not seriously thinking… because he quoted poetry?”
The pain in Corso’s voice cut Raii’sa like a knife. Her plan started to crumble around her. It seemed like a good idea at the time. Prove to both Corso and herself that she wasn’t good enough for him, that she would just break his heart. Push him away now, controlled, intentional, limit the damage she would do to him later. She wasn’t prepared for the agony this would be, however.
“I could do that.” Heart breaking, ashamed, he looked at the ground near her feet, “I’d just have to… read… some…” With a slow sigh, he turned and walked away, head hanging.
She never imagined she would make Corso think he wasn’t good enough. She studied his retreating back a brief moment before turning her attention back to Lokir.
“Ah, of course. This is your husband. Who else would venture into such dangers?” Lokir nodded in understanding.
“I… Lokir, he’s right.” She swallowed the lump forming in her throat, everything was a mess, and it was her fault. “You… we both have people to go home to. I’m sorry.”
“Love is the bolt fired in darkness, which knows not what it slays.” He took a half step towards her, then backed away. “I would lose my family to keep you. I pray that the mystics might heal my heart.”
Scratch seemed wary, “You’ve got a way with men, my friend. Remind me to keep this platonic.”
Without a word, she dipped her head in goodbye to both men, before turning to follow Corso. He had stopped just past a bend in the cave wall. He stood staring blankly ahead. “C’mon, Corso.” He followed in silence. Guilt ate at her. How had her life turned upside down like this? One too sweet farm boy falls in love with her and suddenly she can’t think straight. “We need to talk when we get back to the ship.”
“Anything you want, Captain.”