I feel like ADD makes everything difficult. Anything with complex steps and I'm already lost.
So many asian guys have ended things because they couldn't accept or have any compassion for my anxiety •too scared to ask a question like, "how come you kind of stopped talking to me?" (Apparently this means I'm fucking WEAK) •too paranoid because I picked up something going on between a female roommate and my bf at the time. ("You need some help" they told me in the last message they sent to me) Or how about: "I can accept my child's disabilities, but I can't accept yours" "May be I could date a girl with anxiety, but that won't be you" "I validate my grandmas mental health issues, this musicians, but I have no compassion or space to accept your issues" "I don't believe in add, but I'll take add medication for school because it helps me concentrate despite the fact I don't believe in the existence of add"
During times where I'm being harassed or attacked by another person in an environment where they are unavoidable (my home, or a class) I have to deal with everything by myself because I don't have anyone to help me or I can feel support from. I reach out in my own ways that I feel I'm asking for help, and they're always shut down.
Made some silly mistakes on my linear algebra quiz last night. I forgot how to factor (one of the mistakes) which is really sad because I was honestly a factoring queen circa 2009-2010, but with ADD, even if I know some material fairly well, if I don't do it often or regularly to Jog my memory, I will completely forget the material. Example: algebra Despite 100% on all my tests and quizzes I can't do anything anymore unless I re-learn everything.
My absolute biggest pet peeve. It's really distracting, especially if you have ADD like me, and you see rapid movement from the corner of your eye when you're trying to study or do homework in the library. One time I had to change seats in a classroom, because the girl sitting in front of me did this, literally right in front of me...it was SO DISTRACTING. People need to do something more often for their anxieties, especially non-ADD people. (Even off my medication I can't unconsciously do this)..cos shit like this can impact other people.
Ugh I hate feeling overstimulated
So some angry half Chinese girl on tumblr claimed that I shouldn't get angry over people forgetting I'm mixed race (this after she failed to calculate a fraction because she didn't know 3/8 is from 3/4..3/4 is 75% and 75/2 is 37.5% and I made her look bad) because I look "100% whitey" so there's no point in doing shit or whatever her pointless BS rant was. My point was people would forget that I'm mixed race (which is kind of a big thing to forgot NGL lolz) and just say I'm full-white or something. So I'm curious what her argument would be when people forget I have a learning disability? Her (probably): tbh your learning disability is invisible so you look 100% normal so you don't have any reason to protest against people who keep thinking you're just stupid blah blah blah. Btw ADD doesn't exist and everyone has it there's nothing wrong with u. Point here: I am from no distancing myself from any feeble minded POS who forgets important things about me, THAT, or I'm just going to call you a different name since you don't care to remember things about me y should I care about u lolzz
Part of me still forgets how judgmental and shitty people without ADD are in my classes, so I often forget I can't talk about my difficulty I had in a science class because if I do I'm automatically judged and labeled as stupid and sometimes told that I am too
So I'm thinking about my learning disabilities and writing statements and admissions for schools i'm applying too.
Able-bodied people tell me, even if your personal sytatement is good, your GPA is more important.
But you don't have a learning disability so an able-bodied person's personal statement even if it's about how their GPA is impacted by some problem in their life, it's kind of a dust particle compared to someone with a learning disability.
1)our learning disability never goes away. I will die with my learning disability.
2) it impacts my learning ability 24/7/265 when may7be your life crisis impacted a semester of your life
3)my learning disability impacts me in an umbrella of different ways
4) add in anxiety making it hard for me to complain about teachers who violated my accommodation rights, (aka discrimination) because i'm scared what they will do if they find out it was me and I complained.
5) oh yes let's not forget discrimination from teachers who (one did this) refused to grant me my disability accommodations (this is illegal , he could be fired for this).
Please stop speaking for others when you say "ëveryone's personal statement is unimportant""obviously you know jack shit.
I can't find anything on the Internet but I realised my problem with math and science and add. I'm good at history because it's straightforward with no hidden meanings in the text. My problems with math and science are due to poor examples, no reasoning on why this step happened or the next step. Poor directions leave me stuck with no where to go. When teachers skip steps in class I can't follow them 98% of the time. It's like sometimes sitting in a friends class I'm not enrolled in because I have no idea what the teacher is doing each time they write on the board. This was in my discrete math class. Ugh nightmares. I sat in there feeling do lost and I felt very disabled. Sometimes the directions are so poor in my textbooks, I've began looking at myself and really start to believe that I'm not a native speaker of English because I can't understand what I'm reading in English. This is a worse case scenario: Weak induction and strong induction. Each definition I came across was totally different from the next, leaving me in an infinite loop that never ended. I couldn't read my discrete math textbook. People without add can figure things out most of the time given bad directions or none at all. Me? If it's very,very,very basic...,´I might be but most of the time I can't. I often feel like in math and science, things are just thrown at me with no clear or understanding description of whatever they fucking are. I'm expected to remember things I can't understand? Yeah watch me fail.
#picstitch#add#autism#mylife
This is what it looks like when I'm trying to read my discrete math book. I know it's English but I can't understand what they're saying in English. I honestly feel like I'm not a native speaker
I'm trying so hard with my 115 class. Spending every day light hour possible to study and try and understand my homework, and I got a 3/10 on my last quiz because I couldn't remember every little definition from the top of my head, This past hw section I honestly felt like English wasn't even my native language because I had such a hard time understanding whatever I was reading in English, it was that hard for me. Ugh. My parents just tell me they won't pay for my education if I do bad. But it's do hard if you have a fucking DISABILITY.
Oh it's white people too who act like they don't know me too -___- This stuff I can see interfering with my medication because I'm feeling sad...
ADD Science proof
Teacher doesn't explain each step in the math/physics problem Miss the concept of the problem, thus miss the ability to take the idea from the problem and apply it to other problems Fail to see the concept, fail to understand the class Fail the class
The more I learn and understand my learning disabilities, the more I can't stand abl- bodied people. I already live in a world that does not cater, or give a crap about my learning needs. (Explain each proof step please and why?? Please stop telling me to just "read the book") What you see, I may not see, because that invisible math step that's obvious to you, is invisible to me. Why do people with ADD face academic challenges? Because we are left to figure out everything on our own, and nobody cares to explain shit.
I wonder if anyone with ADD or ADHD was able to take and pass college level physics classes?