i love doodling on mspaint ignore me
also ignore julius being gay in the top corner
i love doodling on mspaint ignore me
also ignore julius being gay in the top corner
re:zero is like the most joyous thing i've ever witnessed but it also really makes me want to end it all
I think Subaru just feels that if he was born a girl life would have been easier since he wouldn't have to deal with the expectations as the first son
The thing is: Subaru gets a genuine sense of joy out of dressing as a woman. His entire presentation undergoes this massive shift. He becomes more confident, he thinks he’s prettier, he’s outwardly flirtatious — and even when he’s not, uh, “in uniform,” he genuinely loves making dresses, and styling hair, and playing with makeup. It gets to the point where, before he learns ANYTHING else, Rem remarks that his sewing skills are “top notch” — simply because he enjoys it so much that it’s where he dedicated all his time. Plus, there are all these little hints in the LN about how he misses being a cute, androgynous child who could be easily mistaken for a girl (even saying that the years have not been kind to him, which is a very strange way for a totally cis guy to reference puberty), and how he cried when his hair was shaved off, and how he prides himself on the old nickname “Princess of the Ice.” And even when basically nobody wants him dressed as a woman in Arc 7, he keeps making excuses to not change clothes, and EVERYONE takes it that way. And also he refers to Natsumi as his ideal self. This isn’t just him doing what’s easiest: he LIKES this.
Plus like — if you want to talk about characters leaning into an opposite gendered persona due to feeling that they can’t live up to their gender’s expectations…Ferris is right there. And Ferris very specifically foils Subaru in ways that are incredibly pointed. Ferris presents as a girl specifically for Crusch’s sake, while every time Subaru dresses as Natsumi he’s like the only one who actually enjoys it (sans Emilia, who has been very pointedly left out of the reveal that Natsumi == Subaru, and who uniquely shows pretty much zero contempt for his crossdressing habit in the one failed loop side story where she does find out about it). Ferris has to go through this entire morning routine of “getting into character” every day in order to be Crusch’s Cute Little Ferri-chan, Subaru slips into Natsumi’s persona so easily that he has to actively fight AGAINST it. Ferris dresses almost solely in a singular outfit that’s basically his Ferri-chan uniform (complete with a collar and a bell), Subaru has this whole love for styling different outfits practically every time he dresses as Natsumi. Hell — symbolically, Ferris is a nickname for a very traditionally masculine given name (Felix) while Subaru has been referenced many times as having a name that is explicitly androgynous (the implications of this can be debated but as it is I’m pretty certain it was intentional on Tappei’s part). It’s like a Whole Thing.
(And also — we already Had the whole “Subaru struggling with the pressures of being Kenichi’s son” thing. It’s what the whole First Trial was about him overcoming. So why is Natsumi becoming More prevalent as the story goes on, if it’s just an extension of that?)
(And if it really IS an extension of that prior problem, why do we STILL very pointedly not know what happened that day when he got found out? With Subaru going out of his way to shadow it as “a very traumatic event for me that I have spent a significant amount of time processing and struggling to overcome” while never revealing what actually went down — it’s be kind of anticlimactic for something like that to be revealed as just — an extension of a conflict that already got revealed and resolved ages ago.)
I present to you my one contribution to the Re:Zero fandom.
Subaru not being an aggressively masculine straight boy isekai protagonist is so precious to me. The way he admires Emilia's outfits and hairdos and told her she could opt out of their first kiss, the way he's good with kids and loves small animals, the way he isn't petrified of things that might make other people question his manliness – he does have some toxic traits he's needed to work through that could be tied to gender ideals, but truly the ingredients for a wholesome man are all here.
Also he's bisexual and we love that.
*Cutely pulls out some of my favorite Rezero Infinity cards*
He sewed dresses for them;-; ..by hand???😭
+ this one only bc the cat Ferris is holding looks too much like a Subaru lol
Adds one more of this cards from Re:Zero Infinity because it’s another example of his knitting/sewing!
don't remember if I saw it on your blog or someone else. but I saw a post that implied that Subaru's self harming started in ep4/ln2, when he didn't have his training injuries healed by Emilia.
idk about you, but that implies that Subaru's parents were more ...Combat Butler Hayate than canonical Parent and Child. just for the sake of my own sanity, I consider Subaru's self harm habits to be cause by Rem and Ram.
they (in arc 2) were that terrible after all.
oh i think you mean this post!
i think this is on me for not explaining my thoughts better, but i dont think subaru was actually self-harming all the way back in loop 2 at all. like you said, all the injuries he got were from the work he was learning to do, he even started listing them off to emilia proudly (this ones from cutting vegetables, this ones from the laundry, this ones a dog bite, etc.)
he sees them like mini battle scars, and because of RBD this means theyre also tangible proof of his experiences. i dont think that this is a bad mindset at all actually. especially given this was loop 1 of arc 2, so rem and ram hadn't even done anything bad at all either.
what i was more-so implying was how you could see a bridge being drawn from that healthy sort of "battle scar" mindset to a more harmful "proof of where i am right now" mentality. its not an uncommon thing for people to cut themselves as a form of self-grounding. even in arc 3, subaru had developed the habit of biting his lip until it bleeds when he got stressed out (stressed might be an understatement).
the thing is we never actually see him self-harm during the interlude between arcs 4 and 5, beatrice only references it as something that happens when she sees the scars on his wrist. so we cant know his exact mindstate about it.
so this is largely speculation, but i think i can see how point A lead to point B... subaru is dealing with multiple lifetimes worth of ptsd, so it makes sense that even during his downtime (the timeskip) he would need something to keep him grounded when things got rough. and something like a cut is tangible proof that hes alive and there, especially since he could physically feel the pain. the difference now is just that its self-inflicted... like he said in arc 2, its his proof. thats how i see it at least.
this is reinsuba right
Re:Zero FanWeek DAY 3: Heroes
can y’all imagine arc 7 rem remembering this shit lmao
AU based on the DBH, I love this game so much!!
Ratio mainly works as a tutor and mechanic in his spare time, due to the loss of interest among people in learning from people themselves. He was trained in android repair and everything related to them, was going to get a job at CPC in the android improvement department, but was refused.
Aventurine android with the code "KA700" was created for personal use, but for an unknown (spoiler) reason he became an office assistant to CPC (Cyber Peace Corporation). He was thrown into a landfill for an unknown reason. (spoiler)
Veritas found Aven in a landfill of discarded androids, the guy looked completely new, out of curiosity he took him home. Rinie DOESN'T get hurt during component transplantation, all he's afraid of is turn off permanently during component replacement.(he begged Ratio not to turn him off)
I will try to write this story further if you like it! I have a lot more to tell you.
英雄 Hero
they look a bit like a married couple or something but also like they're going through some relationship issues here
swap emilia's hell week at the mansion
concept @magicxdice