The beginning (again)

Hello world.  I haven’t posted here is so long because I initially only used Tumblr as a way to host pictures I needed to use for my book blog.  My work life changed to something much more stressful and I ended up abandoning the book blog that wasn’t all that successful anyway.  Since that point, while I haven’t entirely missed the blogging world, I have missed sharing my thoughts on things.  

I have since given serious thought to starting that blog back up or even to creating a booktube channel.  But there are aspects of both I don’t like.  For starters, editing videos does not appeal to me in the least.  I filmed a video once while I was still in the blogging world and I never even finished editing that first video.  I hated it.  I’m not saying that I would always hate it, but that initial experience was not one I could see myself spending hours laboring over for every single video.

But there is another reason both of those options of somewhat unappealing.  Both of those options are a bit more public than I am comfortable with considering the things I’ve been dying to discuss.  Obviously a booktube channel would prominently display my face.  My current abandoned blog is linked to all of my personal accounts and wouldn’t be difficult for someone in my real life to find.  The things I want to discuss are things that I don’t think are really anyone in my real life’s business until I decide to tell them, but I also think my voice can add to the discussion.  

The thing that I want to discuss both in general and also in how it relates to my reading and such is...the fact that I am asexual.  I will probably make a post later discussing my journey to that realization and how it relates to things and such, but the only important thing is I feel like I don’t see anyone talk about how identifying that way impacts their reading or just life in general.  But I’m also not at a point where I feel like I owe that information to anyone in my life who doesn’t already know.  I’m in a committed relationship.  What we do (or do not do) in our bedroom is no one’s damn business.  One day, maybe I’ll feel comfortable letting more people in my real life know that fact about me, but today is not that day.  

However, it is pride month.  I see so many people posting things about being gay or trans or non binary or bi.  Actually, I feel like I see way more bi pride this year than anything else.  But I don’t see much ace rep and I think that we need more of those voices.  Everything else aside, I have felt broken for most of my life because of my feelings towards sex.  I feel like my life would be so different had I learned the term asexual earlier in it.  If I can help one person feel less broken, then I will be happy with my accomplishments here.

That is all for the this first post.  I don't know when I’ll post again.  I don’t have a schedule in mind.  I just have several discuss style post ideas that my brain keeps circling back to and I feel like I need to put out in the world.  See ya soon...hopefully.  :)