snowjanus headcanons:
- when they were much younger, little more than school children, sejanus kissed coriolanus. it was chaste and boyish and had everything to do with the fact that coriolanus was the only person nice enough to treat him like he was human. sejanus apologized profusely for being so silly, and coriolanus told him it was okay—said it was just playing and swore never to tell anyone. and he didn’t, not even tigris, partially because he kinda liked it and partially because he was worried he’d get in trouble for it, too. sejanus trusts him so implicitly because of incidents like this
- they didn’t kiss again until they were peacekeepers. it wasn’t chaste but it was boyish and it had everything to do with the fact that sejanus was the only one who cared enough to follow him out to district 12.
- coriolanus did love sejanus, just as much as he did lucy gray, and he was only so hesitant to say as much because he knew sejanus could not be controlled like lucy gray. sejanus plinth was richer than he was and loving him would require more of coriolanus—a lack of control he did not like to be without. but he did love him, despite himself; he took comfort in sejanus’ presence, and sometimes even in his naïveté. sejanus was gentle and that was a brave thing to be in the capital. coriolanus had never really seen anything like it except for in tigris.
- coriolanus’ feelings towards sejanus did not cause any sort of bother inside of him in the typical fashion. he was not surprised by the fact that he felt attracted to a boy as much as he was that he was attracted to sejanus. sejanus was embarrassed by his attraction to coriolanus, not because he was a boy, but because he felt it was asking too much of coriolanus. especially as younger boys—he knew the others already ridiculed coriolanus for even being his friend.
- they liked having sex together ! a lot ! it terrified coriolanus, how much power he was willing to give sejanus when it was just them, naked and needy. and he was surprised by sejanus; the way he could be rough and controlling, how he was not always pliable and powerless. and he was braver than coriolanus—he didn’t mind asking and communicating, exploring. that first month in district twelve was bliss for them both. it was a month of unhurried and unabashed exploration—like making up for all the time they spent pretending they hadn’t wanted just this thing
- coriolanus did not tell lucy gray about sejanus, but he felt she knew. and, of course, sejanus knew about lucy gray. it was unspoken and neither parties were offended. they were all so young and life had been so unfair up until that point. the only possessive party involved was coriolanus