the problem is i will not be watching redemption s2 but i also have fomo u kno
#this is about silence on the set but it is also not about it. i just. redemption wasn't in the cards for me. didn't ever even watch 1b#this also is about silence on the set. which i couldn't bring my brain to fully comprehend when it was going around.#and like i'm not ready to dig into my personal reasons for why it hit so hard. but here we are.#i was going to give redemption s2 a try but now. idk. i'm not participating.#life is also just weird and i am not participating in anything. this could be called seasonal depression. this could also be tmi.#but back to the issue at hand. someone else said it best and i'm going to try to summarize it?#basically no one is making money from the content i am interacting with/creating. so maybe one day i will go back to it.#some stuff i can look back at fondly. like this. thing took up my life and it got me through a time.#and the experiences i had because of it are not bad.#at this point it's fun when people interact with old posts. find xyz that brings me back to a time when all of this was lighter in my head.#maybe it's not fair to be able to separate it. but we all separated nate from the actor. maybe none of this is fair. this society just.#can't let u have one fucking thing huh#anyway if u made it this far......... <3