Wow spending every day in bed plus alcohol

Plus anti psychotics means I’ve gone from a size 8 to 18 I have hardcore been hating my body and it’s bring back all my dysmorphia feels from high school, I have purged lately something I haven’t done in a decade and I’m so insecure in public idk what to do because it’s definitely meds and I can’t stop them they are keeping my head not fuzzy but also I can’t even get myself to shower so I can’t exercise rn . Sigh I hate being sick