Even positive and affirming comments can be distracting and disruptive when unsolicited.
As a result, my brain refuses to give any indication to people in my physical location of the good things I spend energy and time focusing on while I’m doing them. I haven’t been home alone for months now that everyone else is always home too. I just want a space to be fully asocial sometimes.
#actuallyautistic#the pandemic#It is super hard for me to speak aloud unless directly prompted by someone else#and it gets even harder when there's anyone in my sound space who might hear me making unprompted sounds#and so since my mom's work is ann online for the time being#her work space happens to be just on the other side of the door to my room#I've found a really good online service to learn a language I've wanted to study#but i can't do the speaking sections unless everyone is asleep#but i also have a harder time speaking the more tired I am too#so i need to wake up and have breakfast when they're all going to sleep in order to have the time and freedom to do it#it's really annoying#still though#glad that's the bulk of my worries