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sniffs you. welcome to my doghouse :°]

this blog is run by a system. you can call us Sparks or subject 915. × Bodily 134 dog yrs / mid 20s human yrs. × collective pronouns are he/him + plural they/them.

CW: our ability to double bookkeep/tell our delusions from reality fluctuates, so occasionally there will be untagged unreality in our original posts on our blog. our op tag is 'sparks barks'

☆ what we are/we'll talk abt here

- clinical lycanthrope/werewolf

- livestock guardian dog mix, black sheprador, wolf

- retired emotional support dog

- rescue dog

- lab experiment / test subject

- physically non-human

- necrosomatic w/ recurring cotard's [@corpseddog]

#sparks barks#about me
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whenever people ask how ive explained to people, especially younger kids such as my roomates little siblings, how i experience pyschosis, or just daily life as a schizophrenic person, specifically delusions and paranoia, i use the horror movie analogy.

"you know when you watch a scary movie, and your super scared after? maybe you think theres someone in the dark or hiding, and you do unreasonable things like crawl on top of the sofa or run down the hallway so nothing can catch you. thats what it feels like for me. in the moment, it feels very very real to me, and it doesnt help when people go 'its just your mind playing tricks on you', because its so real to me its hard to believe. what i need, just like you would need if you watched something scary, is someone to sit with me and 'protect' me, or keep me safe. protecting me can mean things like 'if i do this, nobody can hurt you.' or 'im with you, i will keep you safe.' or, i need to do things i know will make me feel safe, such as a routine, turning a light on or holding a pet'. everyone will need something different, you just need to ask."

it helps people, especially young children or people who dont really understand even the basis of pyschosis/paranoia/delusions, put it into perspective from their own experience.

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at times i can feel a phantom sensation of the amputated stump of my tail. i can feel where they cut it off. i think they cut it short and then did something else to remove the leftover. it hurts so much but i do like being able to feel even part of my tail. i like feeling how my body was supposed to be before they changed it.

#sparks barks#unreality#labpuppy
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rats0nvenus

‘He’ but not like human man more like male creature who smells kinda odd

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Anonymous asked:

do you eat from an actual dog bowl? genuine question, no hate ♡

yeah! my goal is to eventually aquire enough dog bowls that i only ever eat out of them but for now i still sometimes eat off human type bowls and plates but only reusable plastic ones. i cant stand any other texture dishware unless i Have To (ie at a restaurant)

#askbox
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openedmaw

i hate my latuda on virtue of it taking my psychosis away from me. i feel much better and more stable moodwise but its taken me being a dog as a physical fact and aspect of my body and turned it into an identity instead. i am still a dog but im in a human body. its so upsetting because i LIKE having a dog body. i miss it so much. but i cant live with the mood disorder shit anymore and this is the only thing thats ever worked this well for it. i miss being a dog.

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openedmaw

NO MORE LATUDA. i start a new mood stabilizer thats not also an antipsychotic in a few weeks once the latuda is out of me. really hopeful tht my dogself will return fully

#it was making me suicidal really bad so i stopped it#sparks barks#psydogtic
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Anonymous asked:

hello sparks!

i just wanted to say u seem rlly cool n that i like seeing ur posts. its been rlly comforting to be able to see other psychotic people post about their experiences n stuff. it makes me feel a lot less alone.

anyways, hope u have a nice day/night.

thank u ^_^ i like talking abt my experiences and im glad its helpful for others to see

#askbox
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