like imagine youre a dude who has been in solitary confinement for about a year in camp where everyone would rather see you dead, and then what is probably your worst enemy comes into your cell with some wine and makes you swear a vow to save her daughters. you don’t really have the authority to uphold any vows at the moment but you agree to do it anyway because its the one ounce of hope youve had in a year to see your family again.
and then your captor sends you on your way with someone whom you absolutely despise because of course you would. but along the way, you start to understand that the woman youre traveling with completely embodies everything you idolized when you were younger and less cynical. and for some reason it bothers you that she hates your guts and calls you by the name you used to wear like a badge of pride. but she’s so dedicated to her goal that you dont try to fight her until one moment where she drops her guard. but when you fight, you realize that your reputation as one of the greatest swordsman in westeros is being legitimately challenged and you actually take the time to think “holy shit this guys good.”
and then you both get captured and suddenly you find yourself getting super protective of her because you know shes about to be subjected to what you consider to be one of the worst fates a woman could suffer. and while youre wondering why you care, your words save her from that fate - but ultimately it results in you experiencing the worst moment in YOUR life. you completely lose your identity and spiral into a deep depression to the point where you actually try to commit suicide. until brienne, who somehow knows exactly what to say, convinces you to live so you can take revenge against the people who’ve wronged you.
and although youre still completely lost in everything you no longer are, you actually find the will to live because this woman you hated told you so. and suddenly you dont hate her anymore. you try to save her again despite knowing it would get you in trouble and then suddenly youre thrust into the position of extreme vulnerability where theres nothing you can do but confess to this woman how your greatest failure was your greatest deed. and you dont know why youre confessing this to her when youve told no one else, but you cant stop yourself. and she doesnt stop you. you pass out in her arms and then when you wake up, you wonder what the fuck to do next.
you have an opportunity to finally get rid of her, and you nearly do. but then you have a dream about her that is trying to tell you that she will be the only one for him in the end. you cant let go of that dream, so you go back to save her and almost die doing it.
and then you make it back to kings landing where she comes face to face with a man who has accused her of killing his lover and you save her yet again by having her imprisoned, because you know she wouldnt win that fight. but it actually hurts you when she thinks youve betrayed her because surely she’d know you better than that by now. then you find the best opportunity to thank her for everything she did for you by gifting her with an incredibly rare weapon and trusting her to uphold not only her honor but yours, because you finally understand that is possible to be an honorable person in this world thanks to the woman who’s standing right in front of you.
then she leaves, but she doesnt really. because everything you do from this point out will be dictated by that definition of “honor” that you have carved into the hilt of her sword. you never once doubt that she can do what youve asked of her, but you still worry about her all the same. of course, you dont realize that youve changed on a level more than physical, yet you strive to be that ideal knight from your childhood and only take up arm against another when you absolutely have to. you start relying on your intelligence rather than your brute force when you take the riverlands with no bloodshed.
and then because youve changed so much, you start recognizing the toxicity of your relationship with your sister and you start distancing yourself to the point where you look the other way when she asks for help. you no longer view her with any sort of positive connotation, and inexplicably you start thinking about brienne more and more. you even meet up with a guy once who admits that he and brienne used to be engaged, and you dont know why youre annoyed that she never told you about this. but when the asshole outright insults her, you dont even think about it as youre beating the shit out of him and asking him to show her respect. in fact, youre so disgusted by his presence that you send him somewhere far away so you never have to see him again. but still, you dont think about why you did any of that.
and suddenly brienne shows up at your door, and your first concern is all of the scars shes collected since you saw her last. you dont even wonder about the mission you sent her on until much later. she tells you that sansa is in danger and of course you trust her because why would the honorable brienne ever lie? and you drop all of your duties to the crown to leave with her because you’ve decided that shes more important than any of it.