Day 7: Wife (protect)
“Even though everyone thinks of her as your betrothed,” Ryuu says one day out of the blue, startling Obi, “she always avoids the topic of marriage.”
It’s not like Obi never noticed; no matter in what connotation marriage comes up, Shirayuki always manages to change the topic or escape the scene swiftly – but it’s different when he notices something and when Ryuu is bothered by it so much he decides to speak up.
He knows that Shirayuki does not avoid speaking of marriage because she rejects the idea of marrying him – but it outright enrages him to think that it is most probably because she thinks she is not worthy of happiness. Because she thinks that her years on the streets have tainted her, making her something ugly and undeserving.
She’s been a girl who knew happiness. She was not born on the streets. She was someone her parents wanted and expected; someone who was loved, whose wishes were listened to. Someone who could laugh openly – whose mischief was always forgiven, because no matter how tough Mukaze looks, he has always had a soft spot for his daughter. She was once a carefree child, someone her parents cherished a lot.
If not for the cruel twist of fate which led her to live the way she did, she would be flirting with young men just like Yuzuri.
Yet Shirayuki feels dirty, for she killed to survive.
Obi knows that he can’t undo the past – but he is determined to do anything within his reach in order to free her from her ghosts.
Obi barges into the room before the footman could announce him. The king looks up, signaling the servant to leave.
“Obi-kun. What a rare sight. What brings you to Wistal?”
“I want you to refrain from sending Shirayuki on missions to the slums ever again.”
“I wonder if this is the tone a court pharmacist shall talk to their king,” he muses, waving Obi closer to his desk.
“You’re not my king,” Obi says, bobbing his head to the side. “I’m a citizen of Tanbarun. To me, you’re just the brother of my friend.”
“I wonder, whether you came here with the intention of talking to the ‘brother of a friend’ or the king, though. From your request phrased so kindly, it seems the correct answer’s the latter.”
“I came today to speak to you, the employer of the knights of Clarines, asking you to free a knight of yours,” Obi reiterates.
“She is one of my favorite knights. She saved my life.”
“She saves my life every day.”
“But I could be,” Obi hisses.
Izana raises an eyebrow, intrigued.
“I assume I’m speaking with Obi Shenazard, then,” he says, inciting nothing but a wicked smile out of Obi. He is not denying a thing. Izana pauses long, eyes never leaving Obi’s face, before he starts talking again. “I knighted Lady Shirayuki upon her tremendous help in the Bergatt uprising and she has been a great help since.”
“I’m not asking you to never call her to your aide again. That would hurt Shirayuki, too. But I want you to never send her to places that can remind her of her… upbringing.”
“And what is the merit for me, her employer,” Izana smiles, all but amicable, “in this? Why would I go along with this seemingly selfish request of the bastard of the neighboring king?”
“I plan to marry Shirayuki,” Obi says. “Which also means that I will no longer cause a threat to your brother’s reputation.”
“How do you get someone believe in your love if they think they are not worthy of it?”
“I thought you have a question about your work schedule,” Garrack comments, putting her papers away, “but what makes you think I can give you an answer?”
“You managed to marry Shidan.”
“Well, that was a tough nut to crack indeed. He didn’t want to court me until his rank was higher than mine…”
“But you are the highest ranking pharmacist in Clarines.”
“Just between the two of us, Obi-kun… I seduced and threatened him.”
“Oh, so unbelieving, you are so not cute. But I did threaten him. I told him that if he is not going to ask me within a year, I will marry someone else.”
“That… won’t work,” Obi says, sighing softly. “If I told her I’m marrying someone else, she would congratulate me and wish me the best.”
“That, I can imagine. Good luck,” the head pharmacist nods. “You will need it.”
“So… today I kissed Yuzuri.”
“Congratulations,” Obi says monotone, not looking up from his book.
“Not gonna ask how it went?”
“How did it go?” he asks obediently, much to Suzu’s displeasure.
“Thanks Obi, for asking,” he says, flashing a fake grin. “I got slapped. At first. But then she returned my kiss, and we got a little… hot.”
“What about you?” Suzu creeps on him from behind, curly blonde hair tickling his ears as his friend clings onto him, laying his head on his shoulder. “You seem to be moody nowadays. Something wrong?”
“Oh yeah, totally. I get the ‘hmm’ too, sometimes, and it makes me forget meals and gets me grumpy for days.”
“Shirayuki,” Obi starts, pushing Suzu’s chin off of his collar, “she doesn’t… treat me as equal.”
“Do you feel oppressed?” Suzu asks, stunned.
“The opposite!” Obi lets out a short, not-so-happy laugh. “I feel like she puts me on a pedestal. She rejects my love, thinking she doesn’t deserve it.”
“Well…” Suzu starts, walking around Obi like a well-fed cat, to stop right in front of him and grab him by the shoulders. “As a friend, I must admit that I’ve always found you had some weird taste in women. Shirayuki is a good kid, she is just… a bit lethal, you know, with all her knives and poisons. Not really the type people would normally want to cuddle all day. I get that you want, I get it. The thing is, she is not your average girl. The way she sees things may be different from how you and I do.”
“So? What is your advice, Mr Finally-Kissed-the-Girl?”
“You can’t just be all smooth with Shirayuki. She’s way too invested in her role. You need to tell her why things happen, otherwise she would assume that it’s all part of your little guard-game.”
“Did you hold her hand?” Suzu turns his own question against him. Obi huffs, ruffling his hair in frustration.
“But did you tell her that you are holding her hand because it makes your heart go crazy?”
“Did you tell her you love her?”
“With these exact words?”
“No, but it doesn’t really…”
“Oh yes, it matters. If you think she would get your hints, you are mistaken. To get your hints, she would need to have confidence in herself, and believe me, the man with the least confidence in town, Yuzuri could invite me to her room and make me sit on her bed, but I wouldn’t even dare to think that she was trying to seduce me. Subtle just doesn’t work, when you love someone but you are sure they wouldn’t see you the same way…”
“You were rejected again.”
“Thanks for pointing it out. I appreciate the support.”
“Maybe you should change tactics.”
“But how? I tried the honest method, holding her hand and looking into her eye, kneeling before her and she still thought I was joking!”
“It’s your fault, you know,” Ryuu says, undoing the buttons on his winter coat. “You brought up marriage way too many times lightheartedly, now she can’t take you seriously.”
“But… I just… feel the urge to say something funny when I get nervous.”
“Well. I feel like hiding when I’m nervous.”
“I’ve never seen you truly nervous.”
“I’m just very good at hiding.”
“Shirayuki,” Obi says one day, when she sets out their plates to eat. “Let’s get married!”
It’s not the first time he proposes – maybe the third in one week, but at least the thousandth overall.
“I’m not marrying,” Shirayuki says, just as always. “This one’s absolute.”
“Why?” Obi asks unfazed, so used to rejection now that he can’t be bothered. “You don’t find a court pharmacist to be a good match? Would you be happier to marry a king? Should I go back to Tanbarun and challenge Raji for the throne?”
“But now that this option has come up, it’s worth mentioning that it might make our father happy. He has always worried for his country if Raji was to inherit the throne… I advised him to crown Rona, but never thought about the possibility of myself as the next king…”
“Obi!” Shirayuki slams her spoon in her soup. “I. Am. Not. Fit. For. Marriage. Please stop joking.”
“Shirayuki,” Obi replies in kind. “First of all, I appreciate that you finally decided to use my name, I would’ve been devastated if we jumped from ‘Mister’ to ‘Husband’. Secondly,” he continues, raising his voice, “I think it’s up to me to decide whether I find you worthy of my love or not.”
“Yes, it is!” Shirayuki raises from her seat. “But you should choose someone who is…”
“You! I choose you. I chose you ages ago and I will always choose you! Get this through that thick head of yours, for once and for all: I am in love with you. I want to marry you. I want to put babies in your belly. I want to get old by your side. And never since I met you was I considering anyone else.”
Shirayuki looks at him as if she has seen a ghost.
“I’m afraid it’s not possible, Mister,” she says, trembling.
“Shirayuki. Please,” Obi breathes.
That’s all it takes, the next moment she is out of the room.
“As if I’d let you,” Obi grumbles, leaping to the door in one huge step, ready to run for his life – only to bump into her right in front of his doorstep, sweeping her off of her feet and landing on top of her in the snow.
“Ouch,” the girl says, looking up at him. Her face looks puffy – almost as if she cried. She may be the fighter skilled enough to win tournaments; she may be the sole woman knighted by Izana for her achievements – she is still very much a girl, shivering in the snow.
She is the girl he loves.
“I’m sorry,” Obi moves, brushing the snow out of her hair. “Are you hurt anywhere?” he pulls her in an embrace, cradling her small frame against his chest.
“I’m fine,” she breathes in in huge, hiccup like gulps. “It’s just… a bit too much. I’m just… I’m so… inadequate.”
“You couldn’t be more perfect,” he kisses the top of her head. “You have no idea how worthy you are. You would make the best wife, if you let me, I would make you the happiest wife.”
“Are you sure this is not a joke, Mister?”
“It’s Obi,” he stands, carrying her back to the room.
“Are you really fine, marrying me… Obi?” Shirayuki asks, clinging to him like a baby monkey until he plops her down on her chair.
“I wouldn’t be fine marrying anyone else,” Obi replies, kneeling down beside her. “I’m deeply hurt that you don’t believe me.”
“I… I do. But I can’t. But I do!” Shirayuki exclaims, confusing herself.
“Now, which one is it?” Obi snorts.
“Both,” the girl replies. The gentle touch on her chin makes her look up, losing herself in his deep golden eyes.
“Yes, Mist… Obi?” she squeaks.
“I would like to,” she says, in a voice so small Obi has to focus hard to hear it. “But I don’t dare to.”
“Is it frightening? The thought of marriage?”
“Then, are you not happy with me? Would you like me to become a king? I was joking before, but if you ask me to, I would more than happily make you my queen…”
“I always… feel like a queen by your side.”
“So?” Obi looks up, hands clasped around hers. She shrugs, slowly melting off the chair to hug him.
Shirayuki leans back brushing through Obi’s hair to have a better look of his face.
“I’m sorry I rejected you so many times. I’ve always… always wanted to marry you.”
“But?” Obi asks back, slightly panicked.
“There’s no ‘but’,” Shirayuki plants a small, shy kiss on his forehead. “Marry me please.”