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22:45 || ༻`` 11 Nov 24 — Monday

It's late and I wanna go to bed so I get up at 6 tm to revise.

Today I revised for a total of 52 mins (chemsitry)

It's a strange correlation, feeling good often while doing really nothing for yourself, feeling bad often when implementing good habits and working on self improvement.. // 🍊

22:57 || ༻`` 6 Nov 24 — Sunday

So that session at the cafe was great! So glad I went again. I stayed there for 🦎 2.5 hrs and started it off with an amazing slice of red velvet cake and pineapple & passion fruit smoothie. I then worked on finishing up some artist research and my personal statement. I'm almost at 3,000 characters now so the first draft is almost done! On the way back to the car I also dropped into a shop and bought myself a pretty necklace 😊

This may be a strange request, and I'm not sure if any of you would even go for it, but I thought that I might as well ask.

In my Art ALevel I've got to use first hand images (can't use pinterest 😭), and soon I'll begin to start making my final piece.

The idea that just struck me (if my attempt with clay next week will work out well) is to make a portraiture sculpture that mixes in ideas like below:

So would anyone like to be my reference?

I would need pictures of profiles shoulder up (front, both sides, back, maybe top too?) in a similar pose to those in the images ^, let me know if you wouldn't mind doing smt like this :) I would of course not be sharing the pictures online and the only people that would see them is probably just my art teachers (as I'll need the references printed).

Or if you have any images of butterflies, flowers, plants or birds I'd also really appreciate it, whether sent through dm, an ask or @ in a post 😊

22:36 || ༻`` 4 Nov 24 — Monday

First day back in school was pretty good. My Monday's aren't too busy and apart from struggling with embroidery thread for my art study, it was a good welcome back into routine. My mocks are at the start of December so I'll be starting revision across all my subjects tomorrow.

This evening I cooked dinner and went shopping with my dad. I ended up getting more thread and a proper To Do List pad so I hope the pretty look will encourage me to use lists more often.

23:33 || ༻`` 1 Nov 24 — Friday

Currently working on embroidering more of my art pieces. I'm almost done with 2 of them and the third is maybe half way done? Or almost half way at least.

I have done nothing this past week. I touched my book once and I brought 2 with me. And yet I somehow don't feel bad about it. It could be the fact that I spent it with my family and K and we've been going to the beach and watching movies all evening or playing so many card games (I rock at uno). I think this was a really nice break to have 🙃

I'll really need to lock in once I'm back home but I think I'll be able to do that well — even though I've been on my phone for hours each day and constantly going to reach for it while working on the embroidery, I am really enjoying just taking things slow and being in the moment. Plus I'm excited to do some of the work, like writing my artist analysis' or my TSJ entry and even getting 🦎 organised for school (in general, hw-wise, and my-test-on-Friday-wise).

I also obviously haven't got to responding to messages, @'s and asks. I'll get to those soon enough as well as consistent updates.

23:57 || ༻`` 29 Oct 24 — Tuesday

For some reason I still haven't gotten to making an update for this and answering asks, messages and @'s .... Although that is on top of my To Do list for tm!

Been doing a lot of resting so far into my break, the only school work I've gotten to is art and that it taking forever but I am still enjoying the process. And apart from continuing to write my personal statement (gotta do that real soon again...) I won't be able to do any other school work or revision till next week...

Photo dump:

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23;19 || ༻`` 20 Oct 24 — Sunday

Good day for the most part.

Didn't get a massive amount of my personal statement done but I do have 1200 characters now and about a third of my bulletpoints down in some form! I will need to reword some stuff (that was a given) but also add in and relate a lot of extra stuff afterwards cos I don't think the points I have down will fill up to the character limit... Also talked to A about it briefly and they gave me a suggestion to help after telling her about the biggest writer's block I've ever experienced.

I did a small storyboard for Army Dreamers that I'm hoping to draw out properly about my AU characters. (I've got sooo many projects started...)

Oh I also went shopping and I managed to find a gift for R as her birthday is coming up along with cards for her and S. Also another Christmas gift for A and a birthday gift for K (her birthday is all the way in July but we don't do Christmas gifts for each other and I just couldn't not pick this uppp, it is the most georgeous picture frame I've ever seen!). I'm meeting up with K on Tuesday to look for gifts for R and S and I'll talk to her about my uni choices also (about which, thank you soooooo so so much @desi-girll @nyx764 and @studywithvictory !! I will make the lists and take your messages into consideration. Youse were incredibly helpful! 💓)

I talked with A some more in the evening about the new Life Series and then Formula 1. They've been talking to me about it recently and I keep encouraging them to do it. I managed to find a live of it on youtube and watched along with her. I was so invested in it even though I could hardly tell what was going on, who was who, or what the commentator was saying.

And now J is drawing lemon sharks for me 💕

22:28 || ༻`` 15 Oct 24 — Tuesday

Something I really want to highlight tho is:

In the past few weeks I've been floating in the good-or-bad-but-mainly-meh feelings and I wasn't doing much with myself at all. Then a few days ago I watched a stream of someone playing a Papa's game and commenting on the customers and what they order or how they rate the food, and I tried doing it myself. Just talking into the screen and coming up with some personalities for the customers. Yesterday before my bath I did 21 pushups almost in one go and while in the bath just suddenly though of how I could've tried to so a few more and then—in June I was managing to do between 20-25 pushups in a row—I realised that I had just done 21 pushups. When my wrist got hurt I couldn't do a single pushup and after my wrist got better my arms were just a lot weaker from the lack of consistent exercise so I tended to do 5-8 at a time. So with the achievement of 21 I applauded myself and gave a silent cheer. Today in study I was listening to music and consciously moving my head and body a bit side to side in time with the rhythm.

After all of these simple things I got very very happy! Right after them! And the happiness level will of course vary from person to person and even between what it is that you do, but I strongly reccomend just trying to interact with the things around you, especially if you're by yourself or in a low mood.

I hope this helps somebody like it helped me ^^

^ I keep forgetting about the last 2 and just not doing anything about them... Need to change that // 🍊

22:58 || ༻`` 13 Oct 24 — Sunday

🦎 Didn't get up to much work today but I'm still very happy and I definitely needed this rest.

After feeding my dogs I went back to bed until 10 and it was so nice to sleep in that late and not feel like I should've been awake earlier and that I wasted a morning. Plus my breakfast was nice: toast with ham, peas and sweetcorn 🥪. Simple but soo good!

I spent the majority of my afternoon playing and replaying Papa's Scooperia because my friend recently rediscovered Papa's games and I followed. Scooperia is my go to and the websites that I kept trying kept crashing or just not working or were completely erasing my progress. Plus ipads suck for their full screen option for games/videos. But I think I found one that works, I'm really enjoying playing through it, and I'm engaging with the game a lot— I dressed the character after myself/my sona, I talk to the customers and I'm making up a romance storyline for the main and server characters 💞.

I also cleaned up the clay piece I did yesterday of the Woodman from Hilda (series of comics/graphic novels and a show). I'm very very happy with how he's turning out ^^. I'm progressing in my sculpture skills :)

And I also finished and posted an animation meme to my instagram. It's an old meme but it was great fun painting and designing it all, and even the tweeting, although it was difficult.

I'll also get to all your asks and mentions soon!! So sorry for leaving them for so long // 🍊

23:38 || ༻`` 11 Oct 24 — Friday

Just a quick one today:

21:47 || ༻`` 9 Oct 24 — Wednesday

Habits and productivity are going ever so sloooooooooooooooooowly....

My screen time has been improving, from about 6 hours daily to about 4 and I'm trying to keep mindful of how close to my face I hold my phone.

🦎 I also really need to do a more proper screen detox as I just don't know what to do with myself anymore, even if it's still about going on yt or social media. It's not that fun anymore. And I don't read that often at all now! Plus I've been getting quite bored of my spotify playlists and sometimes even just can't find any songs that I want to listen to..

But! I'm getting back into drawing a lot more often now, I've been practicing playing my violin too and am rereading They Both Die At The End by Adam Silvera for an easy read.

Currently still obsessed with 🎶 Sailor Song - Gigi Perez

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|| ༻`` 22 Sept 24 — Sunday

Semi-productive today? Couldn't do much anyway because cramps (or just period in general) = no energy but I did continue doing my math homework (got very lost tho so I'll just ask the teacher for some help tm) and I kind of followed a plan I made today;

Recently I've drawn a bit more, mainly for school, and hung out with a friend on Friday. Oh and I've practiced playing violin a few times this week! Wish I had the confidence again to play it when my parents are home but small steps..

Recent photos:

^ Finally cleaned up my desk again and I'm trying out a new set up.

v I'm trying a new to-do list & habit tracking system again. I think this one might work better.

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