Literally just a list of quotes from musicals that really speak to me/inspire me Part III

“Day after day, give me clouds and rain and grey. Give me pain if that’s what’s real, it’s the price we pay to feel. The price of love is loss, but still we pay, we love anyway”-Next to Normal

“Give us room and start the clock”-Merrily We Roll Along

“You can do anything if you try. The most impossible dream can come true if you believe it”-Cats Don’t Dance

“Forget regret or life is yours to miss. No other road, no other way, no day but today”-Rent

“Who will buy this wonderful feeling? I’m so high I swear I could fly. Me oh my, I don’t want to lose it. So what am I to do to keep the skies so blue, there must be someone who will buy.”-Oliver

“But I have a plan, I will be remembered. I will be great, just you wait and see. You better wirse up, cause I’ll rise up, bring on any challenge. And someday soon I swear, I don’t know how or where, but I promise you I’ll never be invisible again. The world will notice me”.-The LIghtning Thief

“The things we do today will be tomorrow’s news”.-Newsies

“My future is unlimited”-Wicked

“Here’s to happiness, freedom, and life!”-Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812

“We may be young, we may be poor, but we know we deserve much more”-Tales From the Bad Years

“If you can’t do what you want to then you do the things you can”-Assassins

“Don’t be afraid of death, be afraid of the unlived life. You don’t have to live forever, you just have to live”-Tuck Everlasting

“I don’t care, I don’t care, when it comes to happiness I want my share. Don’t try to rearange me, there’s nothing can change me, cause I don’t care!”-In the Good Old Summertime

Okay, can we just talk about this song for a minute?

I'd always thought it was a beautiful song, but now that I've actually been to college for a while and visited home for a few days, it's become incredibly haunting to me.

Because while there are many things about being at my school that I love....there have also been some definite awful parts. I'm a theatre kid, of course, but I haven't been onstage in a play since I got here and it's eating away at my soul. I miss it. I know I have to pay my dues and wait for my time, I was expecting that....but how am I supposed to cope in the mean time.

But it never felt real to me. It always felt like any day now, and I would wake up in my old bed, with my cat cuddled beside me, and I would wake up and go to school and see all of my friends and enjoy each other's company. And then I would go to rehearsal and truly feel like I was a part of something, like I was creating beautiful work with all of my favorite people, going through all the ups, downs, challenges and perks together, not caring that we were low on sleep. 

But going back home...seeing my old room now being used as my Mom's space (Not blaming her, we have a tiny little apartment and she needs a space she can call her own), seeing my high school choir perform without me, seeing all my friends and hearing about all the things they've been up to since I've been gone.....it's made it all real. Now there's now way of denying that my life at college is my real life now....and that scares me to death. 

And I miss being hugged. I miss having a core group of people who I know are there for me, who I can count on to do things with. I don't get nearly enough hugs here. 

I don't know...I'm just lost.