Older Siblings Syndrome

I was listening to this very proper, serious kind of interview with David Tennant and he started to talk about his family. He said he was the youngest of three kids and had a brother and a sister, both of whom were a fair bit older than he was. One's 6 years older than him and the other 8 years. And then he started talking about how that's a really big gap when you're children and how he didn't really have a relationship with them until he was older. 

And that's literally almost exactly the story with my sisters who are 5 and 6 years older than me. I just thought that was an interesting kind of coincidence. I really like having things in common with people I admire. It just makes me feel validated in that admiration I guess. It's only now that I've been able to become close to my older sisters. I was really almost an only child for a lot of my youth. My sisters were not interested in playing with me or being around me. They were close with each other and were always heading out with their friends. I got left behind a lot. And I really sort of admired them. I would wear Jill's clothes and listen to the music she played in her car. I wanted to sing like Sage and I learned to play the guitar so I could be like her. I tried really hard to make connections with them and they weren't interested. I mean, I don't blame them at all. They were teenagers. I wouldn't expect any teenager to want to hang out with their 10-year-old kid sister. 

But the struggle I face with my sisters is such a big part of my life. It always has been. It's nice to hear David, this amazingly talented, kind, successful man, talk about having a similar experience. It lights a little flame of hope in me. 

Anyway. 

Weird entry. 

Excuse me while I go crawl back into my cave now.