Countdown - A Pedrotober Drabble
Day Seven of Pedrotober: Ezra
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Pairing: Ezra x reader (not gender specific)
Rating: G for I can't get the way this man Grunts out of my head. Truly, though, it's just angst.
Word Count: 369
a/n: I won't lie - Ezra isn't my guy. SciFi isn't my thing. But angst? That I can do.
"You have to go." His words rip through you like a knife and you hesitate, turning back to look at him.
You want to plead. Beg him to come with you into the small capsule that you both know is only designed for one.
"We'll figure it out, Ezra," you try to reassure him. "I'll come back. I'll find a ship and I'll come back."
"I know you will." He says it like he believes it, even though the lie sits between you until it becomes stale. The fact that you have a chance to escape now is just dumb luck, and dumb luck rarely repeats itself.
He presses you further into the capsule, his body crowding you into the cramped space. He buckles the straps across your chest, the beep of the timer ticking beside your head.
His helmet presses against yours, just for a second. It's not close enough. It never would be.
You want to scream as he moves toward the door. You madly grab at his hand, tangling your fingers together at the last second. To touch him for just a moment longer even through the layers that separate your fingertips.
His eyes betray his emotions and you see the desire to hold you back. To keep you here, with him, on this godforsaken planet simply because you make it better. You make his entire existence better. You can see all the reasons he wants to keep you, which are also all the reasons he has to let you go.
You tell yourself he'll find his way back to you. He's resourceful, he's kept you both alive all this time. You want to believe that you'll spend another night in his arms, be allowed to love him the way he deserves to be loved. That you'll get the chance to give him the life you both dreamed of. That he'll find a way, even if you can't.
"I love you," you whisper as he pulls away and shuts the door, closing you off as the engines rumble. The crash had taken everything from you. But it hadn't taken him. And yet, you'd lost him anyway.