My biggest flaw as a human is that I keep putting off stuff because I’m scared to not do it as well as I expect from myself or that people might expect from me until I have to do it but there’s not even enough time left to make it even marginally acceptable.
I keep starting projects I’m passionate about but giving up midway because my whole body freezes up and the work seems daunting and stretched out but ignoring it never does make it go away, does it?
Lessons:
-work everyday even if only a little
-trust yourself in what you put out
-something is better than nothing. always.
-something can be taking a shower or even getting out of bed. small victories are the ones that count the most.
-ask for help and talk about your feelings if your chest starts getting tight with them
-instead of spiraling into anxiety with long term plans focus on what you can do right now
-sometimes our judgement is skewed when it comes to ourselves. Ask a friend you trust will be honest but gentle with your heart. In case that you have no one to ask, take a dive, you won’t know till you try and wishing you did later on is much worse than trying and failing.
-stop being so hard on yourself. as i read somewhere “failure is a bruise not a scar” It’s so very human to make mistakes. let yourself be a person.
-if you can be kind to the people you love, your friends, parents, peers, strangers even, you have the capacity to be kind to yourself. It’s something innate to you, to care, please try directing some of it to your own heart.
Ok, sorry i’ll go.
I feel like a mum fussing over her children but I really thought that If i’m going to write some nice things for myself after a week of anxiety and 2 days of depressive naps I should post it too because who knows someone might read this and feel a little better about where they are in life.
Your circumstances are not who you are, your decisions may not always turn out how you expected, but these things do not make you any less of a person and any less in deserving love from the people in your life and yourself, ok?
bbye, i’ll go before I end up writing a gotdamn book lmao