not bi enough, not lesbian enough

any other sapphics feel like this??

i literally can't find a label that feels like me.

my attraction is 80-90% women, 10-20% men, and even with those men, it's like, i wouldn't want to commit to them, i don't want a domestic relationship with a man, i can only imagine myself living with a woman. would i hook up with a man? impulsively, maybe. but if i really thunk it through i wouldn't. i'd only do it with a man who has a feminine appearance and personality. the men i'm attracted to, are good looking, and often especially effeminate. what would i be willing to do with them? just be cuddly friends, probably. sure i could fall for them, but i wouldn't act on it, because i highly feel uncomfortable by the prospect of a man being attracted to me. so it feels like, i have too little attraction to men to be bi, too much attraction to men to be a lesbian.

i wish i was 100% lesbian. why? i'm not sure. i think i just love the lesbian community and i know i could never love a man the same amount as a woman. i wish i fit normally into either category. i wish there was a label for me that wasn't vague, an umbrella term, or a microlabel. i wish my experience was more widely understood.