fuck im lonely
Leaving you was probably the hardest thing I had to do. I made this decision, with listening to my brain, not my heart. Because my heart could never take that.
I left you, without thinking about what is going to happen. I left you without thinking about giving you another chance, because I knew it would be in vain. Falling in love with you, was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow, it became the worst. I don’t know what I feel right now, is it regret? Pain? I don’t know. All I know, is that, no matter what you did to me. Leaving you created a great emptiness. That none could ever fill.
I miss you.
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I’m done. I’m done texting you first. I’m done hoping you’ll call and I’m done crying myself to sleep. You’re just not worth it anymore.
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How do I say goodbye to someone I never had?
Why do tears fall to someone who was never really mine?
Why do I miss someone I was never been with?
Why do I love someone whose love was never truly mine?
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My friends say I am so strong I wish I could say this to them:
I am tired of trying, I am tired over crying, I know I am smiling but inside I am dying!
may be then they would realize I am just a good actress!
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Suicide does not mean there was no killer.
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People think depression is sadness. People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, being numb to lie. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again. Days aren’t really days; they are just annoying obstacles that need to be faced. And how do you face them? Through medication, through drinking, through smoking, through drugs, through cutting. When you’re depressed, you grasp on to anything that can get through the day. That’s what depression is, not sadness or tears, it’s the overwhelming sense of numbness and the desire for anything that can help you make it from one day to the next.
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Sometimes I just want to give up, go crawl under my covers and cry myself to sleep. But I never tell anyone this because I know they won’t understand.
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Usually, people think that I’m a strong, happy person..but behind my smiles they just don’t know how much I’m in pain and almost broken..
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A breakup is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself to fix it.
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Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends, but hate socializing. It’s wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely.
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Congratulations, you have survived the war. Now live with the trauma.
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I know it’s not fucking easy, I know it hurts. You’re sitting there over thinking, a million and one questions running through your head. Unable to sleep, creating different scenarios in your mind, while making a mental list of regrets, but you can’t keep blaming yourself for someone elses inability to provide to type of love you deserve. Tonight is just like any other night, difficult as hell, but you’ll do what you’ve always done. You’ll get over it, you’ll get through it. You’ll be fine.
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