getting out of a rut
my few days of regression were not significant to my journey at all. i'm aware that going backwards a little is something that always will happen when you are growing. i did so well in my first 10 days or so of productivity before i entered this. it overcame me and i just did not have any motivation to do anything. i wanted to lay in bed forever, not eat or study or go outside. it is so unlike me and it always makes me feel so inauthentic.
i have a bit of an odd coping mechanism to get out of a rut. i'm not sure how healthy it is but whenever i feel myself growing so horribly bored and tired, my main priority is to not mindlessly consume content. i choose a show (usually atla, since it only has three seasons) and for the following week or days, i watch it all. LET ME SAY THAT BINGE-WATCHING AND COMPROMISING SLEEP AND OTHER ACTIVITIES IS NOT GOOD. but, it allows me to realise that i cannot live like thar, and since i am watching with purpose, when the show ends, i return to my regular life.
this explanation is not very good, so in the future, i will better define what i go through and how i deal with it, hopefully, to help anyone who struggles with the same thing. my focus now is to continue my 100 days of productivity and finish the term on some wins.
love, joanne
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