Have you ever wondered why, while you're in your mood of "wish I could just express myself better, but that'd be a risk", why you think it's so much easier for all your other friends to express themselves?
Newsflash, they're technically "risking" too. They're leaning a little bit outside of their comfort zone for the sake of others. Everyone is taking that small chance of extra fun or the promise of better things everyday. What matters to you is whether or not you're willing to take said risk yourself.
Every time a friend cracks a joke or talks about their day or spends the time and energy of their mortal life to hang out with you, they're taking a risk. Every day there is always the chance that things may, do potentially, go bad... but there is always the chance for things to be better.
Better memories, better connections, better stories, better triumphs, and hey, if they lean out their comfort zones in the same way you do, perhaps there's something there for the both of you.
Whether you call the risk a bond, a connection, love, friendship, whatever it may be in your eyes, it's better when we're all in this together.
And if things do go bad in the end, either there's a drift or someone does the unforgiveable, or if it very simply wasn't meant to be, that just means that there is not only the connections you may have now, but all the connections you may have in the future.
You're gonna get to your happy place, your home. Just take the risk, you'll be good. Love you.