Sunday evening sadness hits you differently
The fact my new job gave me a stagist contracr but wants me to be a manager when no one wants to train me or help me
How i love living in Italy
Not even two weeks in my work and already "fought" with a coworker
Your girl is officially employed once again
I don't think it is normal to feel like you don't want to live past 35
I'm tired of feeling guilty and responsible for this family when i literally never get back the same energy and the reason i want to kmyself is them
I think one of the worst feeling I'm experiencing this month is that I don't have any control over my life.
Like I just exist for others to move me but I'm not the one doing that
This is not life
This is not how it should be
This is not how I should be
I'm tired
Not having friends or a partner is always the hardest thing in days like this, when you would want to escape your family and have some just care for you
Christian mothers will destroy you mentally only to go an hour later to the church and pretend what a great christians they are
Just today I read a job offer that would pay 1-2 euros a month, an other job that wouldn't name the company and an other paying barely 650 euros for a full time job (40 hours)
I'm literally losing my fucking mind searching for a job in italy? Like they are making me regret saying no to a contract paying me only 24 hours while I should have worked 40 hours + overtimes.
I'm sorry but I'm either going to kill myself or become a serial killer
This year I will be 33 and i didnt accomplish anything in my life
Maybe I should gift myself a casket for december
My father will always be the reason why I don't want to get a partner and get married.
I have never seen someone despise his partner loudly and proudly as he does, the shit he says to my mom is incredible; if It was me I would have left his sorry dumb ass long time ago.
Sometimes i stop and think about how my sister has stripped from me all the autonomy about food.
Whatever i eat/cook needs to be approved by her and based on what she wants and what she believes is healthier and fit (most of the time i'm the one that cooks for all the family for both lunch and dinner); I can only control snacks cause i'm the only one that eat those.
Living with an almond sister with a non diagnosed dca is hell
Some people out there have supporting parents and even more a supportive father.
Like that seems fake to me
I can't deal anymore with my parents fighting every single 5 minutes
Literally i have never seen two people so ill-suited and toxic to each others
Why the moment i eat something that is not seen as "healthy" i feel so freaking guilty and like i did the worst thing ever