hello hello i just had an absolute BRAINWAVE abt stizzy/steddyhands
basically, izzy was stedes proper gay awakening, not ed
so we're all agreed that pirating is an allegory for homosexuaity, right? stede is unconfortable in a married state as he says, he's uncomfortable being married to a woman and having to portray a proper heterosexual marriage. hes distinctly uncomfortable, and so he runs off to sea to persue a life of piracy, a life of freedom where he can do what he wants and be with whoever he pleases. as jack says, "anything goes at sea."
and finally, at sea, he does seem better. he looks happier, and his demeanour is insanely positive and optemistic. hes clearly a tea cup half full kind of guy. but as genuinely glad as he away from his family and out on the sea, doing what he wants, a lot of his happy attitude is... not quite fake, but definateky forced to be more than he really feels, because its not turning out quite like he'd hoped and trying remain positive.
up until the end of episode 2, stede is not having a very good time pirating. his crew dont respect him or share his values and have almost mutinied, he's terrible at fighting, he's run aground his own ship, lost hostages, and hes accidentally killed a man.
episode 2 is the first time that not only do we stede truly, genuinely enjoy pirating and being good at it, his ruse when negotiating hostages goes off without a hitch even against one of the most notirious pirates out there - which is of course, izzy. izzy brings that out. fucking with izzy is his first true and proper introduction to piracy. hes not fighting the english, hes not dealing with random people on an island, or poor fisherman on a tiny schooner, he's going up against - and winning against! - an actual pirate.
and he kind of enjoys it.
until then, piracy just hasnt been clicking, but it isnt meeting ed that turns it all around for him. izzy was stedes first taste of true pirating. sure ed teaches him the ins and outs, and ed is the one that stede falls for, but something clicks with stede when he meets and confronts izzy. izzy casts that first spark, that lets stede know he's on the right track and that this is the life for him, a pirates life, a life at sea - where anything goes.