PRAYING ON THE DOWNFALL OF ISRAEL INSHALLAH!!!!!

In case you didn’t know, John Cena really wants you to rise above hate.

During the early 1D days (2012ish) Liam used to do these livestreams/twitcams with fans and answer questions and have fun with us and now it’s hitting me that he did this for us but also for himself because he didn’t want to feel alone in the hotel rooms he was constantly in. He didn’t want to be left alone with his thoughts. It was a way for him to distract himself. It’s so insane to me how for years now he’s been saying in interviews how mentally fucked he was because of his experience in the band and how that’s where his alcoholism started and along the way it turned into substance abuse and I just…I’m so sad. He also clearly didn’t surround himself with good people and that just makes this even more devastating.

So I’ve gone down the 1D rabbit hole and I need to get something off my chest as someone who followed their entire career as a band.

I’ve felt this way for a long time and have to say it cause rarely anyone talks about it but those same people felt the need to attack Liam for anything he’s ever said since the beginning of his solo career. Harry Styles is phoney af. This is coming from someone who genuinely liked him during the 1D days btw. His schtick is so see-through it’s insane. Treating people with kindness and yet your vultures aka stans have never once been held accountable for the absolutely vile shit that they post and say to other people. I don’t give a fuck about him “not being on social media” that man at one point was and lurks and says nothing. He wants to pose as some sort of advocate and yet is dead silent on political issues concerning the audience he caters his TikTok-esque music to. Not to mention that man surrounds himself with awful people and has questionable views on certain things (Palestine being the most notable) but yes, treat people with kindness and wear flashy outfits. What a king 😍😍 I’m sick of people hyping this man up like he isn’t just out here trying to grab as many streams he can with his commercial ass music, baiting schtick, and sucking up to the right people. Also if you’re a Harry Stan, move along I’m not concerned with any of your biased takes.

The Grammys are a joke and have been for a long time. You had people winning one for the worst music and nominations started getting handed out like candy on Halloween except to those that actually deserve it. They’ve lost all credibility. It’s like the Hollywood Walk of Fame. Shit is paid for and non deserving.

Zayn said it best:

The misplaced anger is baffling. Kamala didn’t do a damn thing to earn Arab American votes. She quite literally told them she was speaking whilst they were protesting against a genocide. This same bitch kept reiterating her support for Israel. She is to blame for this and democrats. That is who y’all should be angry at. They ran an awful campaign and it cost them the election and now we’re back in 2016. The democrats didn’t give a fuck and it was obvious, but yes let’s blame people who didn’t want to vote for either genocidal candidate who are dedicated to bombing their home countries.

This is what happens when you run as a republican lite and not a democrat. What a damn shame. The democrats are fucking pitiful and have gifted this man the election. All those celebrity endorsements didn’t do shit. Your campaign was trash and now we have to pay because the dems nominated a shit candidate that alienated the Arab American voters by continuing to support Israel and telling them their families being bombed wasn’t a huge issue. The same candidate that ran around claiming to be “harder on the border” than Trump. The candidate that refused to call an arms embargo. The candidate that had the fucking Cheneys endorsing her. The democrats are to blame for this.

I literally haven’t stopped thinking about Liam for a second since October 16th. It’s insane because I closely followed and loved one direction in 2011-2015 and once they went on their “hiatus” I sort of stopped keeping up with them. I would check in on what Liam was up to here and there because he was my favorite member, but I wasn’t as immersed in the fandom as I once was. I found other things that I cared about and I went on living my life. I entered and graduated college. I found a career and genuinely moved on from fandoms and stan culture. Then this hit and now I feel like I’ve been transported to that 2011-2015 time period and I can’t get out. I’m sitting here angry and sad and hurt. Why did this have to happen? Why him? Why am I so damn affected by it as if I knew him when I didn’t. I don’t understand any of this. I’m genuinely so hurt for what could have been. I always rooted for him to find himself and stay clean. To be happy and live a good life with his son and family. Even though I wasn’t keeping up with him or any of the other boys, I deep down wanted the best for Liam and prayed he’d find his way. This fucking sucks and I hate it. I hate that I’m so sad and angry about it. I’m doom scrolling constantly and I can’t help but not think about him. I hate all of this. Especially for those that loved him. If a stranger like me can be so hurt, I cannot fathom the hurt those who knew and loved him feel.

What’s going to be the worst is as the years go by we’re going to see visible signs of aging with the other four boys but then you look at pictures of Liam and he’ll remain the same 💔