I think an underrated angle on 2x05 is something that either Jacob or Assad said in some interview somewhere, which is that in that episode Louis is addicted to heroin. Thats why he has that whole stash of drugs that he gives to Daniel, that's why he gives Daniel the drugs even though he's already got him alone. He didn't just use those 128 boys for sex he was using them to get high. Bring them home, get them to shoot up, and then drain them to get that secondhand high.

It clarifies something that's always confused me about that scene, which is why Armand saves Daniel the first time. He wouldn't save Daniel as a person, he clearly knows Daniel needs to die, but he's not seeing Daniel as a person there. Daniel is just a substance. He rips him away from Louis to stop him from using.

And i think that adds a whole other layer to the fight he and Armand have to think that this is Louis on a bender, with Armand cleaning up after him because he's not stable enough to. Louis in the bed for a week isn't just healing from the burns, he's going through withdrawal. Him at the table with Daniel giving him the "bright young reporter" speech is probably the first time he's been sober in months.

It adds another layer to Armand's desperation, that Louis has been running from both Armand and himself in this way, and of course Armand wants to erase that memory. Of course he wants to pretend that that fight never happened. Not just to protect himself but in a way to protect Louis from having said those things. When he describes the fight to Louis afterwards, he says "you said the worst things you've ever said to me." And he doesn't really know how to forgive Louis for that so he just wants to bury this rock-bottom moment and move on like it never happened. After all, Louis was high, he didn't really mean it, but if he remembers then maybe he might think that he had a point. Better to wipe the whole experience away.

this is about procrastinating. or executive dysfunction. i think

Interview with the Vampire | 2x08 “And That's The End of It. There's Nothing Else”

so i haven't read the books but i did read the Devil's Minion chapter and this part made me laugh out loud:

Interview with the Vampire 2.05 | "Don't Be Afraid, Just Start the Tape"

Based on this post :) this reminds me a lot of Michelangelo‘s Creation of Adam and somehow it’s even hornier than the original.

"How can you like these very toxic and horrible characters that have done despicable and unforgivable things?" oh it's quite simple actually, this is fiction and I think with my dick.

had a bad low blood pressure moment last night and messily asked my partner for saltines and water before realizing i should probably ask for the Blood Pressure Medication I Need To Take. while they went to go grab it though i still had water and crackers so in a daze i took a swig of water but didnt swallow and then tried to cram 2 saltines in my mouth. full of water. in bed. with mouth full of water

Oh My God Damn

but i stay silly! *←said in the most world-weary voice you ever did hear*

“but I stay silly!”

horrible news: you have to practice to level up your skills because it's unrealistic to think you'll be good at everything first try

this applies to unlearning things like shame and creating better coping mechanisms and forming new habits

over-psychoanalyzing blorbos is healthy and needed enrichment for the girlies in order to avoid over-psychoanalyzing themselves. like giving a dog a chew toy in order to redirect chewing on its hind legs

"Am I evil for resenting well-meaning displays of affection?" No. That's Sasuke. Be safe out there

Had a doc appt (just my yearly checkup) a couple days ago and I asked her about checking to see if my measles vaccine from when I was a kid was still good, since I’d heard it could lose effectiveness over time. She nodded and had a lab done and turned out I was NOT still immune to measles, so got my booster today.

Get your vaccines, folks!

“I have a question about a vaccine,” I say, and the look of ‘god fuckin dammnit not again’ that flashed across this poor doctor’s face, followed by abject relief when I said “I’ve heard that the measles vaccine can lose effectiveness over time and I’d like to make sure mine is still good.” says everything really. 

“Oh thank god,” she literally said. “Yes of course. That’s true, and we can do a blood test and see. If you don’t still have antibodies we can get you a booster scheduled.” 

“That question goes poorly a lot, doesn’t it,” I say. 

“You have no idea.”

Note: In some cases, you may not even need to do the blood test in order to get the measles booster. I walked into my local CVS pharmacy and said, “I was born in [YEAR] and I have no idea whether I got the single-shot or two-shot series. My coworkers keep having babies, tho. Can I have the measles booster?”

And the pharmacist said, “YES YOU MAY, THAT WILL BE ZERO DOLLARS AND THANK YOU”

More info here: https://www.cdc.gov/measles/about/faqs.html

“If you’re unsure whether you’re immune to measles, you should first try to find your vaccination records or documentation of measles immunity. If you do not have written documentation of measles immunity, you should get vaccinated with measles-mumps-rubella (MMR) vaccine. There is no harm in getting another dose of MMR vaccine if you may already be immune to measles (or mumps or rubella).“

(p.s. Please also get your tetanus booster every 10 years, it also contains the whooping cough vaccine so if you are ever in the vicinity of babies, please make sure your Tdap is up to date)

(p.s.s. I’m sorry, I’m a public health professional, I can’t help it)

When my doctor sister was pregnant, she was like “Ya’ll have to get your MMR and Tdap boosters before hanging out with my baby, non-negotiable” and I couldn’t agree more. Get a tiny needle stick, and prevent some babies from getting seriously ill or dead, ffs.

Even if you’ve been getting your booster shots, take a moment to make sure it was the TDAP and not just tetanus! For a while there, people were getting tetanus boosters with no pertussis (whooping cough). My hometown’s had several outbreaks of whooping cough in the past six months.

Not just the babies - get it for those of us who are allergic to the shot! I can have tetanus but getting the pertussis vaccine made my leg swell up like a sausage the one time I had it, and I haven’t had a vaccine for it since.