So I saw that other anonymous post saying that your Fanfic was really good. And I decided to take a bit of time to open it up in a new tab and have a look at it. I gotta say that I'm really liking it so far. I've actually kept reading through into the 3rd chapter, which for me and just how exhausting I find reading to be is a seriously big compliment. Especially with the added fact that I've never actually played through the mod this story is based upon. So the fact your story can keep me engaged despite those two factors is a seriously big acclaim And man. I can sympathise with Gretchen. That feeling of alienation from humanity, feeling held back by your past and even being disgusted by those ties to your past? Feeling like pretending to be something she's not is holding her back? I can sympathise with all those feelings. So I'm going to enjoy reading the rest of this! This is fantastic!
ANON!!! The way you brightened my morning is so unreal! I stg you've just amped my energy by infinity!!!! I know it sounds hyperbolic, but I'm not exaggerating 😭🖤 I want to thank you just as much as the previous anon for giving this fanfic a chance. Ngl I might have squealed a bit like an idiot when you mentioned how you kept going despite those two factors. Tbh, while writing, I had the impression that the style and structure might be too exhausting for some people, but I let it be since I'm 9 chaps deep anyways, so I'm beyond glad that my writing kept you engaged thus far!
As for CQM itself, I absolutely recommend giving the Sabbat route a spin and it offers replayability to those who want to come back after finishing their first run. The mod does an astounding job at portraying the Sabbat as more of an organization rather than a mere rodeo of shovelheads (the mod uses an older version of the Unofficial Patch, so if you're going to switch from the 'up to date' vanilla game to cqm, you will notice some differences, but nothing to be alarmed by).
Aw, I'm sorry you get the feeling of alienation and trust me when I say that you're not alone. No matter how often we think it's impossible, there's always someone out there who shares the exact same sentiment of what you're going through. You're never truly alone in this. And Gretchen, although self isolated, still has a few memories tied to her past that keep crawling back, however they're not too common, but they still linger since there's no way to just wipe them out like it's nothing. Her humanity's descent is going to be a little intense, but it'll, at least, help her find comfort in discovering a sense of belonging somewhere, even if the bunch she's hanging with isn't exactly the morally healthiest.
I want to thank you again and again for taking the time to read my brainrot baby! Hope it'll continue to be an engaging ride for you 🖤 and if not, that's completely fine, love. I'm still immensely glad you picked it up regardless! You're truly a dear and I appreciate you and your kind words so much!!!