Okay, so hi, you might all be shocked to know I am, in fact, still around, and I am trying to build myself back up to writing tumblrs again, but well, that’s harder than I thought it’d be. I’ll quickly explain why I pretty much suddenly fell off the face of the Earth.
So basically the rather disappointing tea is that I’ve been stressed to all hell and that’s made the and anxiety go NYOOM and I’ve stopped writing all together and I also stopped drawing for like months. I had to finish my education which was hella stressful because I was so far behind and it was all done at home, but I survived that, and I got it all done.
Then I’ve had to look for a full time job, which I’ve bought myself a little red car and managed to get a job which will do me until I can find something better, I’m still waiting to start, but yeah, basically I’ve done a lot of adulting these last few months, so I’ve been stressed and waking up stupid early and just yeah, not fun.
However, I think I’m pretty much out of the woods for the time being, and for the last few days I’ve been in a much better position mentally. I’ve been writing a lot of stuff, rather than spending all my time on the playstation, and I drew a picture too and it looks pretty good, so yeah, I think things are looking up.
I’m going to try and get back into the tumblrs, and I will probably get a friend to remind me to write stuff, but for the time being, I’m going to start writing small prompts like the bullet point ones and my whump blog again, just to start getting the habit back, and then we’ll see about bigger things like asks, because those things can be so difficult at times, if not most the time because I want them to be perfect.
Because well, you see I think a big problem for me was that I was spending hours at times writing up tumblr prompts and requests for people, and staying up to write them, and writing even though I had a migraine so my eyes were beyond sore- and if you guys saw my anniversary post and the like... 250,000 words I’d written in a year- point is, I put a lot of effort into this blog and I don’t always get feedback or a real reason to keep writing if that makes sense? It is very rare that I get a kofi, but thank you to those who do. I’m not demanding money from you guys, but it’s a lot of work for other people for me to get so little back. I hope that makes sense.
It’s a lot of work for no reward or encouragement. I’m not saying this to have a go at you guys, but I just think that was my problem, so I need to start writing for myself again, and give myself some days off. I’m thinking about giving myself the weekends off, maybe I’ll go back to one a day, but we’ll see. If I do less work in terms of writing asks and prompts, then I can focus on my stories again, like the Lure Series, and the Mask Series, and the cowboy story, and I think you could really enjoy those stories too.
So yeah, I’m not abandoning tumblr, I just need to make a new strategy that works for me, because it’s just not worth putting myself under so much stress, especially now I have a full time job. I would like to thank everyone who has supported me through this time however, and hopefully I can get some content to you all soon.