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I think luck is a thing
That can be traded.
Given.
Used up.
Not just the good,
But the bad too.
You see
It balances
Overall.
Good luck
Can be borrowed
With permission
Best done
After the bad luck has been used up
Bad luck
Is something you are stuck with
It can get used up
And refills
Over time
Maybe
It's just
Confirmation bias
Where I notice
All the bad things
After I lend out my luck
Or maybe
Just maybe
My luck is doing good
Elsewhere
Growing my hair out
Taking my pills
Under my tongue
Look in the mirror
But I can't see it yet
Looking too hard
Maybe
But later
Eleven
At night
Hair up in a messy bun
A glance
And I see her
I see
Me
Later
A month, almost
More and more she appears
I appear
She's always been me
Since my first breath
Concentrated sense of self
The appearance changes
The demeanor changes
I change
Naturally
I change
As everyone else does
Closer and closer I get
To the ideal within
Unrealistic expectations long forgotten
In the light of the truth
I will surely be happy
And sometimes
I am
Growing my hair out
Taking my pills
Under my tongue
Look in the mirror
But I can't see it yet
Looking too hard
Maybe
But later
Eleven
At night
Hair up in a messy bun
A glance
And I see her
I see
Me
Woodchipper
I wish I could
Put my problems in my
Mental woodchipper
And dance beneath
The sawdust rain
My parents told me I could be anything
So I became what I wanted
And they said
"Not like that."
"Gamers!" Said the Goblin King, "bring them all to me!
Challenge them I will!" He said, "A Gaming Jubilee!"
And so The Goblin Guard they searched the land for goblins great and small,
Seeking goblin gaming champions for the Royal Gamer Ball
For the Goblin King was tired, on his royal gaming chair:
"Life, I play on easy mode. No gamer do I fear."
So goblins from across the land, they rose to meet the king
"What shall we play?" They asked of him, who chortled "Everything!"
"Magnuvox and PS2! 3D-Boy and Wii!
Every console in my gaming horde, handheld and PC!"
"Behold! Your king is master of all the games within!
With a jolly chortle roared the king: "Let the Goblin Games Begin!"
And so the goblins got to gaming more than any gamed before.
They gamed their very goblin best, but the king, he wiped the floor.
The Goblin King was sullen, to the goblin guard he cried:
"Can any gamer challenge me?" But, a little voice replied:
"The surface world has gamers! They are famous far and wide!"
"The greatest of their ranks is known as Jerma985!"
The Goblin King demanded: "bring this champion to me!"
"We shall hold another Gamer Ball!" So the Goblin King decreed.
"Oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit" said Jerma to the crowd
"What the fuck is happening, is this even allowed?"
Said Jerma to the Goblin King, "Hey where the fuck am I?"
"My court beneath the mountain, you will goblin-game or DIE!"
Said the Goblin King to Jerma: "I was told you would impress."
"Chat, I will not fuck the Goblin King. It's against the TOS."
And so Jerma Game'd the Goblin King and matched him play for play
The gaming jubilee continued for a season and a day.
But neither gamer wavered, for their gamer skills were matched.
But Jerma, he was clever and a gamer plan he hatched.
"Hey demon guy, I have a plan to settle this for real."
"We're both too good at Goblin Games, so I have a new deal:"
"We settle this like gentlemen, an all-or-nothing test.”
“A single game of goblin-kart, and whoever wins is best.”
“Accepted,” said the Goblin King “I will not back down.”
“Whosoever wins this race will take the Goblin Gaming Crown”
With a final swig of gamer juice and a final gamer snack,
Jerma and the Goblin King began the final track,
Never in the history of all of goblinkind
Has there ever been a gaming feat so skillful and refined.
Jerma and the Goblin King, equal masters of their sport
Played a perfect game of goblin-kart there before the court.
The goblins of the kingdom could not believe their eyes,
For Jerma and the Goblin King achieved a perfect tie.
The Goblin King was silent, and quiet as a stone,
And what the Goblin King did next, no goblin could have known.
He laughed a hearty goblin laugh, and held out his goblin hand
“Jerma985,” he said, “you are not the greatest gamer in the land.”
“So-” said Jerma985 “Do I still have to die?”
“Worry not your gamer heart” the Goblin King replied.
“For Jerma, you’ve rekindled my goblin-gaming-flame
and reminded me of why, my friend, I love to goblin-game.”
“Hey yeah this was fun” Said Jerma, to the Goblin King
“If you like, we could do, you know, another goblin gaming thing.”
And so Jerma and the Goblin King, they parted ways as friends
But this, dear reader, is not where our goblin-tale ends.
For in honor of his gamer friend, the Goblin King Decreed:
“This day shall mark the yearly Goblin Gaming Jubilee!”
The birds are flying
In flocks
Incomprehensible numbers
The trees,
whose leaves
Have
Fallen
Fill up with the birds each eve,
A sea of black
Above
A graveyard
Yelling,
As birds tend
To do.
In college,
I had
Dreams
Of befriending the birds
(You've seen the stories)
With fancy breads,
&
shiny things.
But,
I
N e v e r
Did.
Maybe
I was afraid
They wouldn't like me too.
In high school
I caused
An impromptu field trip
I had seen the birds
And told the class
And my biology teacher
Decided we could
Watch them.
And much like before,
The flock went for miles
Horizon to horizon
In the distance.
In middle school
I saw it the first time.
Soccer practice.
I felt the need to play soccer,
But that's not the point.
I saw it from miles away
Hundreds,
No, thousands,
Perhaps millions
Of birds.
And
I never forgot.
Gender is like shoes
When you're born
You are given a pair
That grow with you all your life.
Special shoes.
For some people
Their shoes are uncomfortable.
And you'd think
They'd just get a new pair
But
The people whose shoes fit well
Say it's wrong
Because their shoes fit just fine
And that you'll always be a high heel
And not a loafer
Or a sneaker
Or a boot
Or a sandal
But maybe
Maybe those with the uncomfortable shoes
Maybe they try on a new pair
And for that moment
They realize that they can be comfortable in their shoes
And they feel happy about that
And then the people
Whose shoes fit well and always have
Tell them it's wrong
To get new shoes
Maybe
They believe the people
With the shoes that have always fit well
And go back
And maybe
Maybe they wish they could just wear the new shoes once more
Maybe they could be comfortable
Maybe.
