In Vaxleth hours again and I'm not over "It's not that I even want him back I just want him to not be there."
Because oh it hurts. In so many ways Kiki had to make peace with Vax never getting to be at peace, but how do you even really reconcile with that for someone you love? Everyone dies yes, someday it will be over. But you can't even balm the wound with the knowledge that there is an end for him. It will never end, he is forever in limbo and in pain and being used for someone else's ends. If you love someone set them free and Keyleth can't even get the world to do that for him.
#vaxleth#keyleth of the air ashari#vax'ildan#critical role c3#i need him to be de-orbbed immediately#matthew mercer when I find you#actually the gods need to be taken down purely so that the dead can actually rest#instead of having everyone be subjugated to some version of eternity somewhere#broke: kill the gods to become gods#woke: kill the gods so that mortals can decide their own fate on earth#bespoke: kill the gods so that everyone can live to the fullest once and know peace at the end#anyways maybe that's the once-catholic now optimistic nihilst of me