Every night, Crowley dreams.
He is in the bookshop. He knows it by the scent of old lacquered wood and yellowed parchment, the cold whistle of wind through the cracks in the door, and the featherlight brush of the lingering miracles against his skin.
In the bookshop, there is an angel. Crowley knows him by the scent of his cologne, the wrinkles in his lapel, and the bruise on his lips.
Every night, Crowley tries again. He has reasoned, and pleaded, and begged, and yelled, and screamed, and…
Every night, the angel forgives him.
Tonight, the question spills out of him like the frantic rush of a river, drowning the riverbank that had once held it at bay. "Is there a version of this where you stay with me?"
"There's always a version." The angel's voice is soft. It does not conceal the barbed wire woven into his tongue. "But it's not this version."
Crowley kisses him anyway. He swallows the sharp tang of iron that pools in his mouth.
Every night, he wakes, alone.