If you want school to start because you miss the structure and learning but dread the inevitable return of anxiety and stress and you’re hyper-aware of this inner conflict clap your hands
[inhales] [exhales] [looks out into the sunset] the sweet smell of not being in high school
[remembers that i have no idea what i want to do for my future] [continues to stare out into the sunset] shit
trying to avoid old classmates in public like leonadro dicaprio avoiding the paps
everything is bad
closing the 20 tabs you used for a finished essay = euphoric calmness
everyone: “but youre doing so well in school”
me: i am literally dying i dont know who i am and im a shell of myself. i cant remember one thing i did last week, everything is a blur and i some how simultaneously sleep all the time and never sleep
Pros of an 8 AM class: - I get to see the sunrise - making the most of my day? - who am I kidding - there are no pros - I am so tired - I can’t feel my face - somebody help me
Not understanding what the professor is talking about
but you gotta write it down cause it’ll probably be on the exam
honestly i kind of need school bc it keeps my life together. i see friends everyday, get out of the house, sleep normally, and remember to eat dinner
[writes paper] this doesnt make any sense [prints it] [doesn’t proofread] [hands it in for a grade]
me: *can’t handle the stress and demands of school* also me: *can’t function properly without the structure school gives my life*
school is an endless cycle of “i just need to make it through this week” every week.
i deal with my personal problems the same way i study for tests
i don’t