i hate mother's day and i hate my mother because i can't help but feel this gnawing ache of jealousy fill me to my core every year when i see people post their mothers or write about how wonderful they are, and no, i'm not saying they can't do that just because i ended up with a shitty mother, but it's painful because i have to be on the outside looking in at an experience i will never get to enjoy just because my mother couldn't be a good one.
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