everyone is deserving of forgiveness and benevolence. not me though, y’all stay safe
yeah kindness is a decision which is a reason why i hate being complimented for it. i hate praise for doing good things because i see them as things everyone should choose to do. i’m not any more special than the next person for choosing to act in ways where i can somehow make the lives of those around me more bearable. if i can prevent someone from experiencing reality the way i have since i was a kid then that’s enough for me and i don’t want to be thanked or put on a pedestal for it.
when bo burnham said “my empathy is bumming me out.”
i think going through abuse made me sad, not just because of the trauma that is now a part of me, but also because there were times when it was so bad that i would cry because i couldn’t imagine someone going through worse and i would feel horrible because i would know someone out there was having it worse
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