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Slime HRT - Consultation (Part One)

“My name is Elise, and I am a slime girl.”

There were once days where the woman had been neither. The mantra came naturally to her, as it had been repeated for weeks by now, having been slightly changed after the second grand revelation in her life. It was said with conviction, staring deep into her own eyes through the mirror, desperately avoiding looking anywhere else on her face.

“My name is Elise. And I am a slime girl.”

Nearly a month ago she hadn’t engaged in the mantra habit for years. All it took was one too many posts on social media, one final push of pressure through just another dam in her mind.

“My name is Elise… and I am a slime girl.”

The girl sighed, hanging her head low and turning to leave.

It was all fiction, too good to be true.

But so it went, weeks and weeks of embracing this new identity and nothing to show for it. Though it wasn’t very out of the ordinary for Elise, living in an apartment clinging to the shards of a shattered family, the veil lifted so many years prior. She had been medically transitioning for over nine months by now, all in secret.

The conversations surrounding Elise’s gender transition had been hard enough. Even if the possibility arose, it would be entirely too much to hide.

That being said, things weren’t all bad. She had a decent job working as a cashier, and was saving to move out in the next few months to live with her girlfriend, far, far from the city. Once she was free, she could do anything she desired, be anything she wanted to be.

…With limitations, of course.

‘This is really starting to stick, isn’t it?’ the girl thought. ‘It’s just like how the first time felt.’

It was then, in the few hours between waking and working, where Elise would receive a whatsapp message. Moving on instinct to block the sender, the message caught her eye.

“Hey, glad I caught you. My name is Maya, and I represent Something Else Solutions. We work with individuals such as yourself who feel unhappy with their current selves, and offer solutions to those kinds of problems! If you would like to schedule an appointment with our physicians or have any questions, feel free to message this number! p.s. this is actually a real individual and I’d love to hear back :) “

Someone must’ve leaked her number linked to her tumblr. Just her luck.

But as she moved to block it, a small voice, one of curiosity and enthusiasm rang out. ‘What’s the harm in trying?’

Only to be met with the more cynical side Elise was more familiar with these days. ‘I’ve been scammed one too many times, I need to wizen up to shit like this.’

‘This could be our one chance…’ the small voice responded. That wasn’t wrong, though the woman was skeptical at best. And so the probes of messages back and forth began.

Twenty minutes later, she had an appointment.

Three days later, she was on a train to a suburb 20 minutes away. Maya (or whoever that sender was; Elise was still incredibly skeptical) had given incredibly vague directions to the clinic. ‘You’ll wanna leave 20 minutes away from where you live, then take a dirt path that calls to you. As soon as you reach Hyper City most map apps can bring you the rest of the way.’ Sure enough, being as far away as she was, the address wasn’t found by either mapping program.

Hyper City. Elise knew enough about it, but again, it was all fiction, right? A path would just show up out of the blue in a pre-planned suburb of all things.

Though as she was thinking, the woman’s eyes darted to a dirt path between two trees next to the sidewalk. One that would have the HOA up in arms. A path that should not belong.

So, like any desperate fool, she began to walk. A long, long journey that spanned–

A city.

A large, sprawling metropolis that had never been there to begin with had more or less poofed itself into existence before her very eyes. Looking back, Elise was met with a large arch with “Now leaving Hyper City. See you soon!” engraved on the stone above her. And just as Maya had said, the address was now searchable.

The walk to the Something Else building was a blur, as was the wait in the clinic. The receptionist was, as many of the people here, at least a little removed from humanity, what with her long, drooping rabbit ears. Processing, though, was at least somewhat standard, what with the usual forms and signed agreements that came with processes like these. 

“For Elise?” a nurse called. Elise had to strain to not run straight to the door, as she imagined most patients here must have.

Again, the check-up part of the visit was mostly standard. Height, weight, medical history. Hell, if the nurse who was recording everything didn’t have a large crocodilian tail, it might has well have been a basic transition check-in.

When a large owl in a lab coat walked in, everything flipped on its head in the best way possible.

“Miss Elise, yes?” The girl nodded. “Good, hello! I’m Dr. Acosta, I’m part of the IART team here, I take it you’ve heard the good news?” Another nod, followed by the bird retrieving a pen and clipboard. “Wonderful! Now, if you’re comfortable, could I have a bit of your story? Just a little bit of background information to better understand your journey up until now.”

The dam broke. Everything that came out was part of a single train of thought. The first signs that she was a girl. The clues that something at home was wrong for a long time. The friends she made along the way. Dropping out of college. Finding love. Finally transitioning. Everything. 

And despite it all, the doctor was accepting of it, letting her rant and ramble, sometimes jotting something down to talk about later. When she was finally done, a beat of silence came before the doctor spoke once more. “If I may be so bold, Miss Elise, you may be a perfect fit for a treatment plan we’ve recently been approved for.”

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Shifter HRT, part 1 – Egg, Cracked

So you want to be a shifter? You’ve read about humanity replacement therapy, or species HRT, but can’t find anything about the shifter version? You’re scared, you’re worried this isn’t the path for you, but part of you wants it more than anything?

You’re not alone. I’ve been there. I’m still there. And I’ve taken the first steps. Tomorrow I have my first appointment, though not with a doctor, and if all goes well, by this time tomorrow, I’ll have taken my first dose.

I’m writing this so you’ll have it easier than I did. Also, I want there to be a record, in case something happens to me. I’m not exactly doing this the traditional way.

* * *

I’ve known what I wanted to be since I knew shifters existed. Everything I heard about them – being fluid, shapeshifting – felt right. I started imagining myself as one. If you’re reading this, you probably know how that feels.

I hid it. Even as a kid, I knew people wouldn’t react well to what went on in my head. You’re not supposed to relate to monsters.

Then things got complicated when I realised I was trans. I told myself that wanting to be a shifter was all about wanting to fix my body, since being able to shapeshift would make that easy. I certainly did want that – but I’d imagined myself as a shifter since long before then. I’d imagined being able to change myself in many other ways, before transition became the most important thing. And after transition, so much was better, but that longing didn’t go away.

This isn’t a contradiction. Fixing one thing, even the most urgent thing, like I did, doesn’t automatically fix everything. But I was in denial. I’d transitioned (once); everything was supposed to be fine, now. I told myself the rest was a fantasy.

Then I heard about species HRT. I read about someone becoming a slime – and that did something to me. Slimes are fluid, and so are shifters. Shifters are slime-adjacent, for sure. Maybe this wasn’t just a fantasy. Maybe it could be real.

I’m not in denial anymore. Egg cracked. Time to transition again.

* * *

Were there signs? Oh yes, there were signs.

Nimona. Mystique. Slime girls. The Changelings. And when a character says no solid could ever understand, feeling it like a punch to the gut. Wanting to understand.

Wanting to fly, wanting to swim. Wondering what it’s like to be huge, or tiny, or a tree, or a rock. Wanting to be everything. Fluidity. Freedom. Flowing and pooling, wanting to be a blob of goo with no form at all.

Learning to phantom-sense extra limbs. Being a shifter in daydreams. Learning to lucid dream so I could learn to shapeshift in there. Still being sad because it could only ever be an approximation.

Sitting by the lake, longing to merge with the water and lose myself for a while. Wishing it wasn’t water, but other shifters, welcoming.

Sometimes want isn’t the word at all, but need.

And there are people who can actually do these things, and I can’t? How is that fair? What sort of world has shifters in it and I’m not one?

Sound familiar?

I read everything I can find about them. Not stories written by humans – those aren’t accurate. Most are just sex, or all about fear and hunger and absorption. Shifters don’t absorb people! – it’s their biggest taboo. I read stories shifters write for themselves – and I can’t get enough. Just don’t look in the comments: you’ve got humans calling them monsters, telling them what they should go do to themselves – and a few brave shifters saying how much the stories mean to them. Sometimes the stories disappear, but they always come back.

‘Fluid as the ocean, wild as the wind, and cannot be contained.’ That’s a thing they say about themselves. That should be me.

I don’t comment, don’t interact – hiding, remember? But the stories mean so much to me, too. They’re a window onto how my life could be. I tried to tell myself this was just a sex thing for a while – more denial. There are plenty other stories I could read, if that was all I wanted. But that isn’t what I imagine when I imagine shifters, or even shifter sex. I imagine being one.

Haters would call me a traitor to my own species. They’d call me sick, mentally ill, monsterfucker, monster. Like I haven’t heard all that before for being trans. I want to tell them I’m nothing like them, that they can keep their precious humanity if this is what it looks like – but I don’t dare. I’m too afraid: what if they’re right? I know what I want to be, I know what I should be, but I look at my body and think: this is what I am, fixed, solid, human. I can’t do anything about it, no matter what I am on the inside, no matter how much I hate it. And this is familiar, too – I felt the same way before my first transition. Trapped as something I hated being. Powerless.

* * *

Except, now, there is something I can do about it.

No doctors prescribe shifter HRT – unlike for other species. The only source is the few shifters who figured out how to make it. They keep it tightly controlled, so they can control who gets it. They want to make sure we meet their standards – that we’re shifter enough. I don’t like that. But other people, who want to make it freely available, haven’t figured out how to make it yet.

I’m not waiting for them, not now that I’ve decided. I couldn’t. I could die – accidents happen, after all. How would I feel, knowing I was dying human, still wondering what it would have been like? Never really having been me? No. I’m not waiting.

So I got in touch, and I spoke to one of them online. She arranged the appointment, and now she’s flying in – and I’m pretty sure that means as a bird, not on a plane. All I have to do is convince her. Tomorrow determines everything. If it goes well, I’ll be starting right away.

I still can’t quite believe it. It feels too good to be true. But it is. It really is. It was the same before – I couldn’t believe anything would change till I took my first dose of estrogen. Sometimes reason isn’t enough, planning isn’t enough, sometimes it takes direct contradiction to break the hold a belief like that can have on me. I’ll never take hormones, meet I am now taking hormones. Suddenly I see I was wrong, and there is hope again.

And tomorrow it’s going to happen again. Hopefully. Finally.

And then I really won’t be human.

I'm doing one of these now too! Inspired by the many other animal HRT stories, especially the two slime HRT series by @sandyca5tle and @scrubbinn. In the beginning it's drawing a lot on my own transition, but will be going very different places.

If you want to read more without waiting for the rest of the series, take a look at my other stories – shifters turn up in lots of them.

Oh and that list of signs? They're all real :)

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I cannot wait for the next part, this is incredibly well done ^-^

(ofc this means put me in that taglist fellow goop :P)

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