Inktober Day 28: Ride
This is one of the most heart wrenching analysis of my work I’ve ever seen and it’s of a drawing I made in high school of one of my sims. But yes you hit the nail on the fucking head oh my god, thank you @karawatermelon
Our fat bodies are especially emphasized to people around us because this world is designed only for thin people all the way down to a building's infrastructure and what types of chairs were intentionally made available in a room. This drawing makes it seem like the broom is too small for the fat character trying to ride it, which gives me the narrative impression of the character being so embarrassed at not being able to fit the broom made for thin people only. And boy do I relate to that.
That feeling of begging people with my thoughts to not look at me as I try to fit my fat body in this thin-people-only world. The extreme self awareness and self consciousness I was "gifted" with my fat body.
I hear every squeak of my narrow chair that cuts into my hips. I painfully notice any extra tries I have to make to get the seatbelt to fit me. I'm way too aware of how I look as I get out of a booth table at a restaurant. I smile awkwardly as I ask an employee what the weight limit is of the furniture I'm buying. I stand and watch as thin people take for granted how every amusement park ride was made solely for themselves. I grimace while trying to force myself into a tiny bathroom stall that opens inward as if to be a literal slap in the face.
A third of the world looks like me. A third of the world has a fat body type. And yet instead of making the world inclusive of weight diversity, we'd rather call billions of fat people who have always been here and will always be here an "epidemic."
Because equality doesn't make the big bucks for all of the people and corporations who already profit billions of dollars every year on fat people's oppression.
-Mod Worthy
I'm so blessed that such old art of mine has reached an audience that recognizes the struggles that fat people go through and doesn't laugh at it.
And oh fuck is the bathroom stall thing real. My university has a shit ton of bathroom stalls that have installed the toilet paper dispenser too low so that I can't even sit properly without my thigh touching it.
I feel like I always have to be self deprecating about it too if I dont want to be seen as annoying or entitled. Fat people are allowed in thin spaces sure, but we certainly aren't welcome.
