Still Waiting

A month ago, I was contacted by someone at Disney World for an interview. It was about a photographer position I'd applied for several months ago and then forgotten about. I was on Cloud 9 all week and looked forward to the interview because I saw it as the beginning of something big. Despite my excitement, only a handful of people in my personal life even know about this. I didn't even mention it specifically on Facebook, where I do most of my online socializing. Not only did I not want to jinx anything, but I also didn't want people who barely know or talk to me to suddenly act like I'm their BFF just to try to score Disney passes. This particular position is specifically for special events - conferences, family portraits, weddings and in-house projects. It's an incredible opportunity, and although we moved 30 minutes further from Disney last year to be closer to my husband's job, and this position would also mean having to make some childcare arrangements, it's a chance that I felt was too good to pass up. I could actually get my foot in the door there and be on my way to the career of my dreams. No more wondering exactly what to do once both kids are in school because I'd already be working towards that. I'd really gotten my hopes up and thought by now I'd officially be a Disney special events photographer. The interview was very laid back, and I felt it went well. But now it's been a month. I was told it could be a couple of weeks before I heard anything but that I should hear something either way. I was also told that they were only hiring one person now but may be hiring more later. Part of me feels like no news is good news. After all, it took months for them to even contact me for the interview, so who's to say a call to come in for the next step in the hiring process won't also come as suddenly and unexpectedly as the email for the interview did? I've had so many other things to deal with that I have had the benefit of being distracted and not being able to just sit and obsess over this for long periods of time. Still, I do find myself replaying the interview in my head when I get a quiet moment, and I start second-guessing everything I said. The not knowing is enough to drive someone crazy. At this point, I am not holding my breath that this is going to happen, but part of me is still holding out hope. Until I hear a definite no, there is still hope, and maybe I'll get the call. Stranger things have happened.