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god i want to fuck my hofnarr bodypillow

fuck my stupid jirai life

i really don’t like how people are shocked im doing worse mentally

i constantly hear about how “i don’t even try to get better”

YEAH MAYBE BECAUSE I CONSTANTLY AM UNDER FEAR OF MY AUNT FUCKING KILLING ME ANY MOMENT SHE HAS THREATENED ME WITH LETHAL WEAPONS

AND IT DOESN’T HELP THAT SHE DOESN’T EVEN LET ME GET HELP SHE CONSTANTLY LIES JUST TO PREVENT ME FROM GETTING HELP

TRAUMA AFTER TRAUMA AFTER TRAUMA EVERYDAY I EXPERIENCE SOMETHING TRAUMATIC AND THAT BARELY GIVES ME ANY TIME TO GET OVER WHAT HAPPENED THE OTHER TIME

AND ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY THAT THE PEOPLE SAYING THAT I DONT EVEN TRY TO GET BETTER ARE ALWAYS IN THERAPY AND ARE GETTING HELP OR HAVE GOOD PARENTS/GUARDIANS OR DONT EXPERIENCE SOMETHING TRAUMATIC EVERY FUCKING DAY

GIVE ME A BREAK FOR ONCE PLEASE I CAN BARELY GET OVER WHAT HAPPENS BEFORE AND SOMETHING NEW ALWAYS COMES TO FUCK ME UP EVEN MORE

I AM TRYING I JUST CAN BARELY HANDLE EVERYTHING HAPPENING

shoot that fucking orange cunt already

i hope the adopt me ant that my ex gave me is doing ok bru i got hacked and it was stolen

i miss you spogadoinkle

jesus fuck i hate this guy irl so much

can i kill him

No girl , everyone does not hate you, youre just having an episode

do yall ever just have the urge to threaten to kill yourself whenever somebody doesn’t respond in a short amount of time

i hate that i even consider that but i hate being alone its scary

last post does not exist, sorry everynyan schizophrenia-chan was acting up

i am so fucking mad because of people constantly telling me that there is something wring with me when i am completely fine and okay. calling me mentally ill and everything i hate ethat sobfuckibg much can you shut up. Im so glad i stopped taking my meds because i realise that all along theyve been slowly poisoning me and making me into a mindless robot so society can take advantage of me and use me. please dont take your meds theyre poison they ruin you please please they fucked me up. “but you have diagnosed mental illness” YEAH I DONT ACTUALLY HAVE THEM THEYRE TRYING TO POISON ME WND KILL ME WITH THEIR AWFULLY EXPENSIVE MEDS THEYRE TRYING TO LOCK ME UP BECAUSE I KNOW SOMETHING THEY DONT I KNOW IT BUT THEYRE SCARED OF THE TRUTH SO THEY LOCK ME UP AND POISON ME WITH THEIR MEDICATIONS WHICH THEY CLAIM TO BE FOR MY OWN GOOD . I AM COMPLETELY FINE BUT BECAUSE THEYRE POISONING ME IM NOT ITS ALL THE DOCTORS FAULT ITS ALL THE DOCTORS FAULT FOR RUINING ME I WAS REALLY HAPPY BEFORE BUT THEY JUST HAD TO RUIN ME , PEOPLE WERE LYING TO ME THAT IM ILL WHEN IM NOT I DONT KNOW WHY THE FUCK THEY THINK THAT, I WILL NEVER KNOW AND I DONT CARE ALL I CARE ABOUT IS ESCAPING THIS HELL THAT THE PSYCHAIATRISTS PUT ME

I DONT NEED “HELP” I NEVER NEEDED IT THEY JUST TRICKED ME SO THEY CAN POISON ME AND CONTROL ME. THEY ARE HUGE LIARS JUST STEALING YOUR MONEY AND USING THOSE MEDICINE TO POISON YOUR BRAIN TO MAKE YOU WORSE I DONT KNOW WHY THEY DO THIS BUT ITS PROBABLY TO MAKE US LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, MINDLESS SLAVES WHERE WE WORK UNTIL DEATH PICKS US UP BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH WEVE BEEN WORKING FOR THE HIGHER UPS . THEY ARE LIARS BIG LIARS THEY ARE NOT TO BE TRUSTWD NO NO DONT TRUST

my aunt just beat the crap out of me and kept grabbing me and throwing me against the floor because i was jumping while listejing to my favorite song

i feel so upset i was in my favorite shirt too and she ripped it it was brand new i cant stop crying my head hurts she kept bashing me against the floor i hate this so much when can i escape

thinking about that time when i took a bunch of pills that i could find to try and kill myself but managed to find my aunts molly

💀what a time

on the verge of having a psychotic breakdown, ha

ha ha ha ha

ha

I remember when i was still going to a psychiatrist she said that i showed traits of NPD

the whole time i was like “whaaat? lil ol me?? a narcissist???”

I doubt im a narcissist tbh i dont think i fit the criteria

where my olanzapine jirai bitches at

i went out to buy a mouse but the whole time i felt like a video game character

the whole time i heard a voice repeating “mission: buy a mouse”

i was just walking mindlessly store to store trying to find a mouse

i felt nothing , all i could was think about finding a mouse

being a tan jirai is so embarrassing to me

because whenever i wear girly kei i feel sad because i dont look like the hella pale jirais i see , it makes me feel ugly and dirty

wheres my free mercury cream