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“But thoughts of you haunt my heart.”

bojack is levels of petty i aspire to be

The juxtaposition between Bojack and Hollyhock’s childhoods here is agonisingly sad. It’s easy to see how things could have been vastly different for either of them with the reverse circumstances.

this is why hollyhock’s arc is so important. not only is it part of bojack’s aim to take responsibility for his life & his actions, it shows What Could Have Been. hollyhock and bojack likely both have depression (likely genetic, as butterscotch seemed to be as well) and bojack’s childhood subsequently snarled his mental state into something both entirely his fault and completely out of his control. hollyhock was raised by eight loving dads who, while acknowledging her depression and how shitty it is, show her how to deal with it and allow her to feel these emotions instead of smothering them. 

Not even ashamed to admit that I cried like a baby over this ending. Man, that was life-affirming. We had Bojack “I was born with a leak” Horseman thinking he blew it again, lost another good thing in his life. Then Hollyhock chooses him, she invites him to still have a part in her life. This whole season was centred around the toxicity of Bojack’s dysfunctional family tree, this was the one member of his family he seemed to really bond with and want to be around. We just saw how crushed Bojack was by Hollyhock reaffirming that she never needed another father-figure. So to see that acceptance, after a season full of abusive family dynamics, that was beautiful

I sobbed tbh

One of the saddest parts about Princess Carolyn’s self destruction was that she didn’t allow Ralph to fully express how much he cared about her and her safety. Five miscarriages is a lot, I can only imagine that the effect of one alone is a lot, mentally and physically, and she was willing to do that to herself however many times it took to have a baby. So when he said that they needed to look at other options she assumed that it was because he wouldn’t be committed to her properly or wouldn’t be patient with her, but really what would the miscarriage’s effect on him be? Disappointment? Sadness? Obviously emotions I don’t understand but they wouldn’t be anything on the scale they would be to her. Those other options weren’t just for him. They were for her. They were to protect her and her body. It was his way of saying to her that they can still have a family even if it’s not the way they hoped to. But she doesn’t have to put her body through hell to do that. I hope she sees that. And I hope she comes to terms with needing people, like Judah too, because he really cares about her, maybe like no one else has ever.

one episode of bojack: a thoughtful and melancholic exploration of mental illness and childhood truama, following the threads of self loathing and bad behavior into the present where they inevitably shift from parent to child 

the next episode: jessica biel sets zach braff on fire whilst trapped underground, luckily Bug Queen Rupaul saves the day 

he’s learning!

It was painful to watch Diane and Mr Peanutbutter’s marriage crack this season. Especially if we consider the main theme was of how “time’s arrow neither stands still nor reverses”. We see them struggle to move forward together throughout, Mr Peanutbutter’s attempts to become Governor highlight this. Any time we see them happy together is when their relationship is almost ‘standing still’, and there is constantly that reminder that they want to go back to how it all was before. However, we know that this is completely unrealistic, underlined perfectly in the last episode when we see them both physically and metaphorically out of sync with each other. At the virtual-reality estate agents they seem happy to make big plans together, though the whole scene is more obviously a joke for ridiculous VR, we see them unable to find each other whilst Diane is completely hung up on the memory of Mr Peanutbutter’s old house. When they arrive at their new home they immediately want to postpone everything, so they pull a Bojack - they run away. The only time all season when we really see them on the same page in the present, is their last scene. They are forced to realise that their life can’t go back to how it was before, with the severe lack of understanding in their marriage now starkly visible to both of them.

Honey Sugarman getting a lobotomy traumatized the fuck out of me and I don’t think I’m ever going to get over it

Parallels between Beatrice and Bojack in the family portrait, both have that same wide-eyed innocence. As we all now know that gets robbed from Beatrice and taken from Bojack, to the point were they both resemble Beatrice in the second photo: miserable and devoid of joy. 

This was a masterpiece.

hey these scribble sequences were amazing

not gonna lie, bojack season 4 is one of the best works of narrative i’ve ever seen. it fucked me up, it hit home, it got perfectly real. “time’s arrow” deserves an emmy.

Coming from the abortion storyline of Season 3, I think it’s extremely important that the writers included so much on Princess Carolyn’s miscarriages. The shame-free portrayal of Diane’s abortion directly contrasts with PC’s experience, especially as she struggles alone. I think it’s significant that everybody has an opinion in the abortion episode, everybody has some anecdote or comfort to give. Whereas PC is offered little to no direct support or acknowledgement. Her doctor treats her as callously and devoid of empathy as Diane’s did to her, except here we had no one speaking up, no one speaking back. She is given blame and no actual advice or help, emphasising the complete lack of support on offer for a lot of women who suffer miscarriages. Even well-meaning Todd is at a loss for words when trying to think what he should say to her at the apartment. Most heartbreaking of all perhaps, is that PC is well aware of the connotations of what has happened to her, she expects to be judged, she expects to be seen as weak and pitiful and incapable. PC’s storyline emphasises how far we still have to come in making a ‘miscarriage’ more than just some dirty word or something that women feel they have to hide.