maedhros reblogged
beingdeadlikemee
I’ll be loving you Always With a love that’s true Always. When the things you’ve planned Need a helping hand, I will understand Always.
#NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#i'm like a hotbed of emotion right now i don't even know why#i started crying at criminal minds and then i just started thinking of dead like me in the bathroom and i just kept crying#then i came downstairs to finish my cake only to find out my dad ate the last piece#of the cake I MADE#for MYSELF#there's a whole other cake my mom made but no he had to eat MINE#and i cried some more#angry tears#and then i wandered around thinking of dead like me and how i couldn't have any cake and i cried angry sad tears#and then i start another episode of criminal minds to take my mind off of mandy patinkin and his life-ruining roles#only to torment myself in the dlm tag#and then this#THIS#i#hate#the tears#rolling#down#my face#right now#how do i turn it off?#how do you turn off emotional responses like this?#i'm rolling around in emotional self-pity and anger and sadness and tears leave me alone#uUghhhghhguh#dlm