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Aevelle's Mental Health/Vent Blog

Blog probably looks better in either dark mode

GENERAL

The intended purpose of this blog is for me to post vents and stuff without having to worry about annoying any of my mutuals, although most of my posts are just me reblogging stuff from other people or the asks I've sent to "___ culture is..." blogs. My sing-off for those is the lock and pen emoji, hence the username

ABOUT ME

Aevelle is not my real name, but it is what I use online. My main blog is @aevelynx. You can find more about me there, but I will say a few things about myself here:

I am 18, my birthday is in June. My pronouns are He/They/It/Eir. There are disorders I suspect myself of having, but due to my general fear of being wrong, most of them are to be left diagnosed until I can eventually get a formal diagnosis, but I have self-diagnosed disorders because honestly I don't think there's any possible way for me not to have them.

I listed everything below because they're what I will be posting about the most:

Self-Diagnosed:

Major Depressive Disorder (MDD)
Passive Suicide Ideation (idk if it has an official acronym)
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD)
Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD)
Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD)

Suspected:

Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD)
Maladaptive Personality Disorder (MaDD)
Schizotypal Personality Disorder (StPD)
Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)
Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

DNI LIST

Basic DNI stuff (Homophobes, racists, etc)
Zionists (+ antisemitic people)
Ableists
Trump supporters (would prefer to keep politics off this blog as a whole, save that for my main)
Anyone 15 or younger (I don't post anything particularly inappropriate here, I think it would be weird)

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chappellrroan

ellameant

i’m not hot enough to make up for how weird i am

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@funnier-with-npd2

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Anonymous asked:

questioning both npd + stpd culture is having the creeping feeling of being the only one who's "real" and everybody else irl is just too incompetent/stupid/unenlightened to be "real"

narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#Not my ask #NPD #StPD

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Anonymous asked:

npd + stpd culture is actually every things about me in the worst way possible. my friend mentioning a negative feeling in passing? yeah that was a dig at me because they secretly cant stand me. it was my fault they felt like that. all of these actions are specifically about me.

narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#Not my ask #NPD #StPD

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Anonymous asked:

Questioning NPD culture is y'know what? I might not be a part of the friend group anymore, but at the very least I did make a life changing impact on most of you :)

And that's not even a delusion-based thought. I was just one of the only people in the group who wore glasses at the time and I let everyone try them on for the sillies and it turned out only two of them had good vision. Whenever they walked past me during school the next year and I saw they were now wearing glasses, I could genuinely say that I just made their lives just a little bit better.

-🔏

narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#My ask #NPD

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Anonymous asked:

Questioning NPD + questioning AuDHD culture is getting extremely upset/defensive when someone criticizes whatever you're interested in at the moment, but then not saying anything either because we're both in public and I need to maintain my image or because keeping up with online fights is just too much commitment when you could just block them

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narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#My ask #NPD #ASD #ADHD

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iorilvr

me and that feeling one of my friends dislike me for some reason

Sometimes I'll be thinking that I got over my PTSD from that house fire because I don't feel as strongly affected by it as much anymore, but then I realize just how anxious I get when cooking because I spend the entire time obsessing over whether or not the oven mit is too close to the burner (it's a hand and a half away) or if having pots on top of the stove while using the oven will cause it to blow up (I don't think it works like that)

#might delete idk #ptsd #pyrophobia #vent post #< kinda

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nyancrimew

hot take: i feel like sowing is much better than reaping

nyancrimew

like i loove fucking around, but finding out? not so much

what's "hubris"?

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silverwarewolf asked:

npd culture is, if others fail at it it's a skill issue. if I fail at it, it was an impossible task to begin with and it doesn't count

narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#Not my ask #NPD

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Anonymous asked:

NPD culture is I just want everyone on here to know that you all are amazing and special and you WILL get through this and live a happy life!... Because I said so and I'm the best! NOW WHO'S WITH ME!? \0/

narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#Not my ask #NPD

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Anonymous asked:

Questioning NPD culture is fuck it, my fp is my pet from my self-care app.

Random affirmations throughout the day? I get to tell it secrets without having to worry about them ever getting out? It's literally incapable of judging me or thinking negatively about me? Available pretty much anywhere at any time of the day (as long as I have my phone)? Always giving me praise for doing the bare minimum and doesn't make me feel like shit for failing? Say less!

-🔏

narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#My ask #NPD

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demilypyro

I want power. And fwiends

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@funnier-with-npd2

#NPD

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Doing it scared rn

I regret everything

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Anonymous asked:

Questioning NPD (+ other things I don't feel like listing rn) culture is honestly atp I can probably just self diagnose, but then there's the chance I would be wrong and I'm not allowed to be wrong

(yes, I know psychiatrists can also be wrong. However, it's different because I wouldn't be the one who's wrong in that scenario)

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narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#My ask #NPD #Honorable mentions:#ADHD #StPD #ASD #MaDD

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Anonymous asked:

Questioning NPD culture is lowkey (highkey) hating myself for giving a shit about [insert important political thing here] because now tumblr has me shadowbanned >:(

(granted, this is also most definitely a tumblr problem but like goddammit man)

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narcissisticpdcultureis answered:

#My ask #NPD