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Day 1:

I have my own weird relationship with my mom. I’m the oldest so all my life, I have been tasked with different jobs and responsibilities that honestly a child shouldn’t have to do or even think about. But I did them and I didn’t complain, why because I wanted to help. I still do. I’ll drop anything for my family. It’s weird when you finally move out and you aren’t a call (not phone call but actual yell out) away. The requests are at the worst time(they were already) and you’re never given patience. It’s sad that the oldest is never given patience and space. I hate it.

I think I’m going to start back using my tumblr for a place to release my thoughts and feelings

I have a new story about star-crossed lovers

A witch and an alien reunited after 10 years apart. Science vs. magic. The things that separates them are bigger than space.

Went to take my physical and drug test today for a permanent position at my job. First was the drug test which I frankly could not do. Not because I smoke or do any drugs but because I have pee shyness. I have been to doctors offices where it took me two hours to pee before. I don’t know why? I can chug water until it hurts but I can’t pee. While I was waiting for the water to catch up to my bladder, I did the physical part of my test. Seems like my weight has increased and none of it went to the places that matter. Plus I haven’t been to the gym in weeks because my job just makes me so tired after work.

Finally after one hour, I could pee. I peed and got into traffic to head home. This day has just made me look at myself because 1) I still live at home 2) I’m not in good shape 3) no relationship (which isn’t needed but damn) 4) I’m bored with life

Week 3 of having a crush on a guy from work. So my coworker (older black man) told him last week. Told him not to but people aren’t gonna listen. The guy….said nothing. Hasn’t even mentioned it which should be a relief but can’t help but makes me feel like that was a soft rejection. Which is okay, he doesn’t have to like me just bc I like him. He is entitled to his feelings but damn if it doesn’t hurt.

Let me take my L in peace.

I just heard what they did on New  Amsterdam….I’m glad I stopped bc in my head, they are married and living with baby Luna somewhere.

Why do they always do this to couples I like?!? In Sleepy Hollow, they fucked up Abby character too to justify why the pairing wouldn’t work.

I would love to write a Batmom fic where this whole time she’s just been a friend to Bruce and never in a relationship with him but she been there for all the kids. The introduction of Damien is her breaking point bc she feel like Bruce will never see her as anything other than a friend who takes care of the children aka a *glorified babysitter*

What are we doing for our skin? I tried everything and still. I think it’s hormonal bc I wash my face

So I’ve been playing with makeup and cosplay, I’m not the best but I’m working on it.

Pre-Start:

So summer is coming up….

Current weight: 150lbs

Goal weight: 145lb

Hair: a little past shoulders

Hair goals: waist length

Skin concerns: hyperpigmentation

Skin goals: I want to glow

I had two stories in mind and don’t know which one to work on first.

1) Alucard meets a hoodoo witch from America and they fall in love. Nothing really special but I want to see Alucard in love.

2) A Viking king from the past has been living throughout the years reuniting with his lost love  reincarnations, never getting close enough to truly make her his until he meets one in 2022 who is a little different.