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I love hell I am hell

@lj-writes / lj-writes.tumblr.com

I'm also a 40-year-old Korean mom, she/her, culturally Christian atheist. This is a multifandom and multipurpose blog including Star Trek, Avatar: The Last Airbender, She-Ra, writing stuff, politics, and more. Header by knight-in-dull-tinfoil depicts a secretary bird stomping a rattlesnake above the caption "Tread on them lots, actually."
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romanticizing mental illness is dangerous and misleading

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Artsy depression: haunted eyes, good at art, emo hair and eyeliner on point
Actual Depression: bloodshot eyes, no longer trust themselves with pencils, has not showered in five days
Quirky OCD: organized books, clean room, color coordinated outfits
Actual OCD: Intrusive thoughts, flipping the light switch 8 times so you don’t stab your brother, picking holes in your skin
Cute eating disorders: Slim trim and beautiful, shyly refusing a second helping, dancer aesthetic
Actual eating disorders: Puffy cheeks and eroded teeth from excessive vomiting, hair growing over your freezing body and refusing to eat carrots because they’re too high in carbs
Adorable anxiety: just a smol bean, soft, must be protected from the world
Actual anxiety: crying so hard you throw up, shaking, losing sleep over a period after the “okay”
RPG PTSD: flashbacks, vietnam, u don’t know what i’ve been through kiddo
Actual PTSD: Buying your first pregnancy test at twelve, flinching at high fives, i can’t feel my hands where am I what year is it
Cartoon ADHD: look a squirrel, something shiny, fidgety loveable bufoon
Actual ADHD: rereading the same page over and over because it doesn’t make sense, hasn’t done the laundry in four months, hyperfocusing on a mushroom knowing you have work to do
stop making terrifying realities seem cute. it’s disrespectful for those of us who are actually struggling

Fucking preach.

Uwu smol baby autism: adorably awkward, huggable, acts cute when confused, has some sort of rainman talent and a perfect memory in general

Real autism: worrying about whether you’re interpreting people’s cues correctly/making your tone sound correct for the context, or whether they’re about to get wierded out and uncomfortable bc of something you said, sensory issues that drive you nuts, not being able to adapt to sudden changes in plans and freaking out, melting down or shutting down when stressed by stupid things

Reblogging for the autism part that is just too real 

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Honestly, all of this would make better writing anyway. If we wrote mental illness as it really was, people would be more aware. *sigh* sad how disconnected we are.

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I just wanted everyone to see how scary having an eating disorder is, especially coming from someone who struggled with it for several years.

This made me cry…

My mom suffered from bulimia most of her life. My junior year of high school she was hospitalized because it got so bad. She weighed 103 at 5'6. She never explained to my sister and I, at how bad it was until they made her inpatient. She just said she’s going to a place where “she can get help”. She’s also a recovering addict so I assumed it was that. I didn’t see her for 2 months and we would visit every weekend when she was there. I still remember the day we all sat on the grass in front on a blanket and she finally told us why she was there. I was 17. Now I am 23 and years later I had a college course on nutrition. I watched a video of women struggling to keep weight on and having various eating disorders. I couldn’t sit through the movie because it hurt so bad to watch them struggle. I’m reblogging this because it isn’t always the person with the eating disorder that suffers. She hasn’t purged since 2008. I just want you all to know you can get through this and love yourself. Please know you’re worth so much more than you think you are. I swear and I promise, you will get through this. Don’t give up!

I had been bullied into an eating disorder to the point that I was in a hospital with a feeding tube down my throat. Watch out what you tell people guys because of my eating disorder I have a lot of stomach and digestion problems and can barely eat now whether I want to or not. It’s terrifying, but for those fighting one now don’t give up, things get better

This post gets better each time I check it

I was hospitalized over a year ago after being diagnosed with anorexia. Today I thought about letting myself relapse because I felt like no one else understood what it was like for someone battling an eating disorder… I thought only people with eating disorders understood. That comment, coming from the girl whose mother had bulimia, just changing my plans. Thank you. 507 days free from Ana.

This is so powerful

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I got chills at the end... this is legit short horror and tragedy in modern media form. And the personal stories remind me of the other side of the horror, that these are real stories of suffering and resilience. Wonderful OP and wonderful responses.

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